Happily Ever After......The Life of a Family in Ministry. :-)

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year....

2011-12-28T08:38:00.003-05:00

From our hearts to yours :-)

Love,
Michael, Stephanie, Hudson and baby girl (due Jan. 2012)

Driven By Desire

2011-09-30T04:26:00.000-04:00

What do you enjoy? What experiences or things of this life do you enjoy most? Would you enjoy business success or financial gain? Do you enjoy a delicious meal from your favorite restaurant? I’m sure, like me, you would certainly enjoy a big bowl of ice cream on a hot summer day, or an icy-cold glass of lemonade after a long day’s work.

Would you enjoy owning a brand-new sports car, say a late model Ferrari or a Lamborghini Diablo? Or more realistically, would you enjoy a ridiculously fun job that meets your bills and maintains a decent standard of living for your family – how about being a toy and game designer for children? Would you enjoy a romantic evening with your spouse? Or that soft “kiss goodnight”? Maybe you would really enjoy traveling to exotic or beautifully remote locations like Alaska, Peru, New Zealand, Switzerland, or Nepal? I know I certainly would.

Or perhaps you would simply enjoy coming home to an orderly house with the family all residing in quiet, peaceful harmony. Maybe you would enjoy spending more time with your aging parents or close siblings who live out-of-state. For me, I love the simple joy of coming home to the sight of Hudson peeking out the window with a big smile on his face – all the while hearing him shout, “Daddy’s home!” There is pure enjoyment in the warmth of a child’s love.

We could go on and name two or three more dozen items or experiences that we would enjoy – and it probably wouldn’t take more than 5 short minutes. We know what we enjoy and we seek after the fulfillment of our tastes.

Built for Pleasure

We are built as beings seeking after enjoyment, happiness, and pleasure. All men, women, and children seek happiness. As Blaise Pascal wrote, “This is without exception. Whatever different means they employ, they all tend to this end [seek happiness].” But is seeking enjoyment or happiness wrong? Are we supposed to muddle along through life with a whip at our side, ready to beat ourselves into painful suffering if we enjoy life too much? Obviously, the answer is no.

Yet, there remains a problem. We are driven by a desire for something more. Like most people, you and I are driven to fill our enjoyment factor or desire quotient with something or someone that will never bring lasting joy or fulfillment.

Can we honestly say we find our greatest enjoyment and pleasure in God Himself? If we are around church friends and family, oh yes! You and I would repeat the memorized lingo.

The Hinge of Enjoyment

However, I believe you and I know, in the depths of our souls, that we find most of our enjoyment outside of God. You see, the problem is not love, joy or pleasure. We were built by God to seek these things. The crux of the matter is what we find to be the object and source of our joy or pleasure. This is the hinge on which our purpose for living hangs. Who or what we enjoy most shows what we believe to be the purpose for our existence. So, I ask myself, “Am I enjoying God Himself more than anything else?”

I know what my answer should be. But I’m not sure I can always give an honest, affirmative answer to this question. I wonder, is my relationship with God so limited and shortsighted that I am not finding all the pleasure and delight available in Him?

The God Factor

The godly, revered authors of the Westminster Shorter Catechism wrote, “The chief end of man is to glorify God and enjoy Him forever.” Do I really enjoy God above all right now and look forward to an eternity dwelling in the delight of Him alone?

But then we must wonder, maybe the problem is who we know God to be. Perhaps you view God as a mean-spirited dictator who demands your duty – well performed and punctual to the timeline. Or perhaps you view God as a hateful judge who is scrutinizing your every move so he can keep your eternal rewards as slim as possible. Maybe you think God is vindictive, unforgiving, and narcissistic. Or like me, you have thought God loves you more or less depending on your daily actions. However, all of these views of God are aberrant or incomplete.

Getting God Straight

I am moved by how King David described his relationship with God:

“I have set the LORD always before me; because he is at my right hand, I shall not be shaken. Therefore, my heart is glad, and my whole being rejoices; my flesh also dwells secure. For you will not abandon my soul to Sheol, or let your holy one see corruption. You make known to me the path of life; in your presence there is fullness of joy; at your right hand are pleasures forevermore.” (Psalm 6:8-11; see also 34:8; 36:8; 37:4; 42:1-2; 63:1; 73:25; Isa 12:12; Luke 2:10; John 10:10; Phil 4:4; Rev. 21:3-4)

Notice what David does not say. He does not say, “I have set the LORD always before me, so that he will love me more.” David does not announce, “He is at my right hand watching my every move, therefore, I am shaking with fear that I might make a mistake.” No, David views God correctly and fully. God is the source of His joy and pleasure. David has recognized that in God alone is true and full satisfaction. Therefore, he cannot contain himself! He has experienced the true pleasure and joy found in God alone, and his heart is filled with praise. Because David fully enjoy God, the Lord was made known through his life.

Because David fully enjoyed God, the Lord was made known through his life.

This is how God is glorified – this is how He is made known. When we fully grasp who God is and the joy and delight of Him, then and only then is He glorified! To tweak an old adage, you can’t put the mommy in front of the stroller. Our enjoyment of God is the means by which He is glorified. Pastor John Piper proclaims it this way: “God is most glorified in us when we are most satisfied in Him.”

This is the same reason why the apostle Paul boldly instructed the church in Philippi to “Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, Rejoice” (Phil 4:4). Even though Paul was under house arrest in Rome and far from his friends – he had found the enjoyment of God to be satisfying.

Pleasure Forever

This is what it looks like now - in the present. But the pleasures of God are not just for “now” – they are also “forever” and even better! The glimpse we have caught in this present age will be finally and fully realized when Christ returns to reign on the earth forever:

“And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, “Behold, the dwelling place of God is with man. He will dwell with them, and they will be his people, and God himself will be with them as their God. He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, or crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away” (Revelation 21:3-4).

Pleasure, joy, and peace in God are the promises of Christ for His people. We are to be driven by desire – the desire of God. This is why we exist. This is why we are here. We exist to make God known by enjoying Him - all the time. So I ask you and myself, have we truly begun to live for God’s glory? Have we found in Him immense joy and pleasure?

As I mentioned, who or what we enjoy most shows what we believe to be the purpose for our existence. Do we enjoy the pleasures of Christ and the joy of grace more than anything else?

Maybe you are still trying to fill the “desire quotient” with items or experiences that won’t last. Perhaps you are attempting to be satisfied through temporary pleasure, power, or possessions. Most of us have fallen into this never-ending cycle. But with King David and the Apostle Paul, I want to declare to you that God Himself – a relationship with Him through Christ – is the only thing that will ultimately satisfy. God in Christ has offered an end to the journey for pleasure. In Him alone is found the pleasure you’ve been seeking. God has invited us to enjoy Him. Will you accept?

In Christ Alone,

Michael

...love at first sight...

2011-06-14T15:39:00.000-04:00

I will never forget the first moment I saw Michael. My breath caught and I felt dizzy. He was by far the most handsome guy I had ever seen. What was wrong with me? I wasn't the type of girl to get weak kneed over a guy. I calmed myself and continued my conversation, aware that he was sitting right across from me, sneaking glances my way. There was no way I could have known that at that moment he was having the same reaction. People talk about love at first sight as a myth, an illusion. I do agree there is no such thing as deep love at first sight, but there are moments of connection and Michael and I definitely connected that day. We talked on and on for hours, finding that we had a lot in common and similar hearts for ministry and Jesus. I never thought I would see him again. :-)

Thankfully, I was wrong.

Now, five years after that brief and ordained meeting, I am married to that amazing man. I thank God for him every day. I am so grateful for all the big things, but also the small (having a husband who changes diapers without complaining is indeed a huge blessing). ;-) We have endured so many things together: a honeymoon baby, a deathly ill baby and sick wife who both had severe pertussis, no money, the hardships of graduate school, hard living situations, him working 2 jobs, etc. I could go on and on, but God protected us through each step of the way. The wondrous thing about it all is that God used those difficult circumstances to draw us closer to each other, not far apart.

To say that I love him seems insignificant and lacking. It is much deeper than that and I love seeing it grow more every day.

I adore you Michael and I can't think of any way I would rather spend my life than by your side, serving Jesus together every step of the way. <3 Happy 3rd anniversary Honey O' Mine!

:: ah, wee babes are a delight ::

2011-06-05T07:21:00.002-04:00

Yes. We are expecting another wee one in our home. Can't wait!!!! Children are a blessing from the Lord. :-D

Some prayer requests:
* safe, uneventful, and healthy pregnancy for me.
* healthy baby
* to find a house soon!

Up Your Intake...

2011-06-02T19:43:00.001-04:00

Our little Hudson now has a bit more than 2 full years under his junior-size belt. With each new day comes another word, phrase, or hilarious facial expression. He sure loves to see us smile and laugh at his nutty antics – which, of course never cease. God has taught Stephanie and I a number of lessons through our journey with Hudson thus far and this past week another unusual class session arose at the Breznau home.

Several weeks ago, Hudson figured out all the tiny critters that crawl around on our porch and driveway (and sometimes our kitchen floor) are called “bugs.” In true toddler fashion he quickly added a goofy suffix to this generic word, turning every creepy, crawly creature into a “buggy,” or if more than one was in sight, “buggies!”

Ants, spiders, beetles, grasshoppers, and every other insect in God’s creation were now: Buggies! Sometimes Hudson would spot a crumb on the floor underneath our kitchen table and quickly stand up on one of the nearby chairs, and shriek, “buggies!”

Stephanie and I would often try to differentiate ants from spiders, and beetles from grasshoppers. Yet for Hudson the jury was in: they were all “buggies.” In his young mind he understood one fact – tiny moving things with skinny legs are buggies. It didn’t matter the color, shape, or sound, they were all buggies to Hudson.

Yet, this wasn’t the only part of our little guy’s world that was “toddlerized” (i.e. this means generalized for all you pedantic types out there). His all-time favorite toy – the car – included all cars, vans, pick-up trucks, dump trucks, and smaller semi-trucks (although bigger semi-trucks were conveniently lumped in with the large “train” category, which also included the 30 yard dumpster sitting beside our church!). Life is simple in a world of just bugs, cars, and trains. However, it is also drastically incomplete, isn’t it?

Sure, Stephanie and I could go on letting Hudson call everything that moves below his ankles “buggies” and most everything with four wheels a “car,” but such lack of definition doesn’t match up to the complexity of life. Eventually, Hudson will have to mature beyond his toddler understanding about the big, varied, and multifaceted world beyond our backdoor. This task will not be easy. In order for him to learn even just a portion of the specific names for insects and cars will take time, exertion, energy, and lots of rote memorization.

From the Toddlerized to the Evangelicalized

Yet, you and I often fall into the same world of simple generalization. We have our handy “evangelicalized” terms, which fit nice, broad categories of an undefined spirituality. We all tend to simply want to understand only the easy parts of the Christian life and faith. Exertion is shunned in our day of entitlement mentalities and entertainment philosophies. We subconsciously believe that being cool or displaying a “cool-factor” trumps communion with God and tenacious devotion for Christ. And so, we look at the Bible as a quick-fix item or cure-book to solve our problems.

Yes, the Gospel message is simple enough for a child to understand. Yes, we need to value skillfully executed media presentations. Yes, being declared righteous in the sight of God is received by grace through faith apart from any human work or effort (Eph 2:8-9). But, the walk of following Christ is not simple or easy. This walk is also by grace through faith. But the process of sanctification (growing toward maturity in Christ-likeness) is not performed on disinterested, limp bodies, but in and through those made alive in Christ. If our belief or representation of the Christian life is conveyed through a medium of “easy, cool, and generalized” than you and I have grossly distorted the message of God’s Word and the call of every Christ-follower.

Alive and Thriving

Hudson is most certainly alive and well. Yet he will also be encouraged and taught to learn beyond the elementary teachings of life. He will eventually grow beyond calling every sort of insect a “buggy.” He will probably soon grow out of naming all four-wheeled vehicles simply, “cars.”

As believers in the Savior Jesus Christ, we have been made spiritually alive in Him (Rom 6:1-11). We have been brought from death to life. But are we ready to up our spiritual intake? Are we growing beyond the simple, elementary, Sunday school answers for life? Or, are we on the brink of “failure to thrive”? Do you find yourself simply brushing over the more difficult passages of God’s Word? Do you rationalize Christ’s commands far away into oblivion? Are the complexities of life’s difficulties weighing heavily on your belief system? Sometimes it seems easier to succumb to a method of Bible study that says, “Out of sight, out of mind.” Yet, our call and commission as Christ-followers is far different…

Moving from Milk to Meat

The theme of progressing in spiritual maturity beyond the stage of infancy is repeated over and over again on the pages of the New Testament. Notice here what the writer to the Hebrews said:

[regarding Melchizedek – how Jesus Christ stands in relation to Melchizedek] “Concerning him we have much to say, and it is hard to explain, since you have become dull of hearing. For though by this time you ought to be teachers, you have need again for someone to teach you the elementary principles of the oracles of God, and you have come to need milk and not solid food. For everyone who partakes only of milk is not accustomed to the word of righteousness, for he is an infant. But solid food is for the mature, who because of practice have their senses trained to discern good and evil.” (Hebrews 5:11-13)

As those who have been made alive in Christ, the exhortation and message of the Scriptures has a clarion call for us: Grow in Your Faith. We are to be ever maturing and progressing, by the grace of God, into greater Christ-likeness. This is precisely what the apostle Paul was inspired to write about through the Spirit’s direction in his letters to the churches in Corinth and Ephesus:

“And I, brethren, could not speak to you as to spiritual men, but as to men of flesh, as to infants in Christ. I gave you milk to drink, not solid food; for you were not yet able to receive it. Indeed, even now you are not yet able, for you are still fleshly. For since there is jealousy and strife among you, are you not fleshly, and are you not walking like mere man?” (1 Corinthians 3:1-3)

The result of the Corinthians spiritual immaturity was a severe and devastating disunity. They were the most horrendously perfect picture of a clique-driven church. As a result, their witness for Christ in the metropolis of Corinth was failing, flawed, and at best, weak. Unfortunately, you and I often fail to look and act any different. The church of today is rife with division, flimsy theology, self-appeasement lifestyles, and an ineffectual witness for our Savior. Yet, God has given us a specific syllabus to follow so that we will grow together and function properly as Christ’s Body. Pay close attention to the same theme found here:

“And he gave the apostles, the prophets, the evangelists, the shepherds and teachers, to equip the saints for the work of ministry, for building up the body of Christ, until we all attain to the unity of the faith and of the knowledge of the Son of God, to mature manhood, to the measure of the stature of the fullness of Christ, so that we may no longer be children, tossed to and fro by the waves and carried about by every wind of doctrine, by human cunning, by craftiness in deceitful schemes. Rather, speaking the truth in love, we are to grow up in every way into him who is the head, into Christ, from whom the whole body, joined and held together by every joint with which it is equipped, when each part is working properly, makes the body grow so that it builds itself up in love.”(Ephesians 4:11-16)

Growing Beyond Bugs, Cars, and Trains

Our purpose in maturing in Christ is that we grow together in unity and love, and by this mankind will recognize that we are followers of Christ (John 13:35). This process of maturation will not be easy – just like it won’t be easy for Hudson to expand his mind beyond “buggies,” cars, and trains.

Moving from the trite answers of an infant faith to a growing understanding of Christ’s radical call to follow after Him will take time. And, can only be accomplished by His grace, through faith, and via our dependence on His power. Each of us are to learn to work as people gifted in different ways yet all functioning as one body, with Christ as our head. This unity in diversity proclaims the amazing work of God and will show the world the reality of our faith.

Grace to Grow

All this seems rather impossible, doesn’t it? Perhaps it should. To “mature…to the measure of the stature of the fullness of Christ” could never be accomplished in and of ourselves. Yet, as those made alive in Jesus Christ we have been given the grace to grow. You and I can grow in our faith and can up our spiritual intake by following God’s will revealed in the Scriptures.

We can be refined, purified, and directed by His Spirit through His Word. You and I can be exhorted, strengthened, and loved by others joined with us in this body. And we can be unified together in the mission of making God known in the world. This is the call of every Christ-follower. May God’s glory be known and His power be shown in and through our lives to the praise of His glorious grace.

In Christ Alone,

Michael Breznau

[This article was adapted from a sermon I delivered to the Evangel Baptist Youth Group on 6.1.11]

::a grateful heart::

2011-05-10T08:20:00.001-04:00

As I was reflecting on His goodness to me, the following praises came to mind. These are just a drop in the bucket... there are so many more. I could write a book from all the praises we could share, prayers answered, food and necessities provided, needs met. His mercy is new every morning and His love endures forever!

Happy... that I have such a wonderful little family.

Tired... from such a busy schedule and little sleep, but feeling rested in Jesus.

Delighted... that our seminary journey is almost complete.

Relieved... that Michael still managed to get an amazing grade in spite of all we've been through.

In Love... with my wonderful husband.

Grateful... for all Jesus has given us.

Thankful... for the friends and family He has given us the privilege to know and love. Y'all have encouraged and supported us above and beyond what we could have ever expected or asked for.

PEACE... in knowing the Prince of Peace who reigns in my heart.

Anticipating... the next part of our journey together. There is so much more to come. There is so much here now!

I could just burst with extreme gratitude. :-) God has kept us throughout this journey. One thing we tried to keep in mind is that the things of this world do not matter. Only Christ. In Him alone do I put my trust. Believe me, it's worth it.

"Jesus Christ is not valued at all until He is valued above all." ~ Augustine

Huge giveaway...

2011-04-30T08:38:00.000-04:00

If I can reach 400 fans on facebook, I will do a huge giveaway starting May 2nd (just in time to be able to give an IOU as a gift for Mother's Day). So please share with all your friends and get them to like this page. Believe me, the giveaway will be HUGE! Also, gift certificates are available!

http://www.facebook.com/pages/Stephanie-Breznau-Artist/117527738270797

Vote for Hudson...

2011-04-25T15:17:00.001-04:00

He is now in the running to be a finalist in the Parents Magazine cover contest! Please help him win.

I know he is my kiddo, but I think he is pretty much the cutest little charmer ever!

http://photos.parents.com/parents-cover-contest-2011/17/2011/787

Pampered Chef Giveaway...

2011-04-05T15:07:00.001-04:00

My sweet friend Christy is a Pampered Chef Consultant. I have loved their stuff for several years and am looking forward to buying some stuff in the near future for our new home.

Please enter her giveaway here: http://2lovebirdsonthemove.blogspot.com/2011/04/giveaway.html

Art Business...

2011-04-05T09:41:00.003-04:00

I wanted to share on here about my art studio "The Vintage Canvas". My goal is to sell art (wall art, murals, stationary, etc) that glorify God and make people smile.

You can view and buy art pieces on my etsy site: The Vintage Canvas Etsy shop

or on facebook: Stephanie Breznau-Artist

Vintage Pearl Giveaway...

2011-03-31T11:30:00.001-04:00

http://thevintagepearl.blogspot.com/2011/03/happy-birthday-to-me-big-giveaway.html

couponing...

2011-03-23T19:53:00.003-04:00

I am seriously ready to start using coupons, but I feel like a baby just learning to walk. Obviously I won't be buying any junk food, but there is a lot of things I DO buy and I want to cut our expenses down as much as I can (especially with us wanting to buy a house in the next few months). Any help would be appreciated! I know some of you are serious athletes when it comes to coupon-ing! :-)

hello life...

2011-03-18T09:11:00.002-04:00

It has been a myriad of emotions for me living in Michigan. It has been so dark, gray and cold. I am excited to see the area now that the snow has melted (a girl can hope, right?).

We absolutely love our new church family. They have been so welcoming and loving to us. We really do feel privileged to work with the teens and see Christ working in their lives. :-) We already love them so much and pray for them every day.

The house search is going well. We have a wonderful Realtor from our church. Our lives have been so very busy that we have only had the chance to go and look at houses once, but we are constantly looking at listings and praying that God will lead us to the one He wants us to have. :-)

Hudson is growing so fast and constantly amazes us at his quick learning and joyful personality. I enjoy our times of reading and playing together so much. His favorite things in the world are cars, his "bebe" (little puppy blanky he sleeps with), and mama and papa. :-) I've started working with him to sit with us in church. He is a bundle of energy so it may take a while. :-P Any tips would be appreciated. He definitely has a little will of his own and we pray that it will be used to the glory of God someday, but right now we are working on taming it. :-P

Michael is super busy with school and church work. He will walk in the DTS graduation in May, but will receive his degree upon the completion of his thesis in July. We can't wait! It has been an amazing journey, but we are definitely ready for him to be done with papers, exams, and school. Even with the pressures of everything outside our home, he remains sweet, caring, and wonderful. I sure do love my husband!

My parents came for a week-long visit the beginning of March and boy was it fun! It definitely went by way too fast though. My mom really helped me organize and de-clutter! I get to see them again in June when my "little" brother Philip gets married to his sweet Ellen (kind of weird to see him actually old enough to marry).

I try to stay busy with my little home and taking care of my boys. I also spend a lot of time drawing and trying to get my art business off the ground (The Vintage Canvas). I am looking forward to making some friends up here to do things with! I really need a girl's night. :-D

Prayer requests for our family...
* That we can be available to the teens when they need us!
* That Michael can finish school on time and for the glory of God!
* My health... going to dr's soon to try to pinpoint some things.
* That Hudson would be obedient and we can try to skip the "terrible twos" ;-)
* That I can be the wife and mother He wants me to be.

Best Swaddler on the planet...

2011-03-10T17:12:00.000-05:00

Just wanted to give a shout out to this miracle product. I know that sounds overly sensational, but I can attest to the fact that it helped my baby sleep through the night completely by three months old. :-D

http://www.amazon.com/Kiddopotamus-SwaddleMe-Organic-Cotton-Natural/dp/B0013RRNLI

Hudson loved it too. He looked just like a little burrito. :-)

Loving People...

2010-09-29T14:12:00.000-04:00

I just really love people. I love being around them, observing them, caring for them, giving to them, and being there for them. I am not perfect by any means (that is for sure and certain), ;-) and I am sure I irritate more people than I realize, but I do love people. :-) I think that is why I rarely get offended with people, in that I know people aren't perfect and try to think the best of them. One thing that keeps me from getting mad and bitter at people is to remind myself of how much Christ has forgiven me of. :-)

I guess my thoughts for today are that more people should talk about their feelings. If someone is offended with me, I *appreciate* them telling me so and sharing what I did. That way I can take care of it asap! It hurts me when someone just disappears off the radar because they are mad at me but don't want to confront it. It is usually a misunderstanding 99% of the time. Let's face it, we've ALL been guilty of speaking before thinking, right? I think it IS way easier to just brush it off and not talk to someone again rather than talk it out. This is a reminder to friends and an admonition to myself. Life is much easier when we are nice to people. Friendship is worth all the work. :-)

"When angry, do not sin; do not ever let your wrath your exasperation, your fury or indignation last until the sun goes down. Leave no such room or foothold for the devil give no opportunity to him." ~ Ephesians 4:26-27 NASB

The “Challenges” of Marriage…

2010-04-27T01:08:00.000-04:00

A sweet and newly engaged friend asked me recently about expectations and challenges I have faced in marriage. Many couples can recount trivial challenges such as the other spouse not replacing the lid on the toothpaste or constantly forgetting to put the toilet lid down. Michael and I have most definitely faced our fair share of intense challenges in our first year and a half of marriage. Four moves, an unexpected honeymoon baby, birth and delivery, whooping cough, spending 10 1/2 days in Children’s Medical Center wondering if our baby was going to make it through, a stressful living situation, a miscarriage, and financial stress. Wow, I think that is enough to make anyone go intensely insane, right?

Here is some encouragement to those of you contemplating marriage, engaged, or newly married.
1. Pray together daily: Michael and I pray together daily and not only is it a time of praise and thanksgiving for what He has done, it is also a time where we exercise our faith in believing in what He is going to do in our lives.
2. Live sacrificially: It seems like some couples seem to think it is always the wife who is supposed to give up everything when she gets married, has kids, etc. However, Michael and I believe this is a two way street. If the husband comes home from work and the house is STILL a mess, the kid is running around in a dirty diaper, and the wife is laying on the couch feeling sick, it is not for the husband to berate her in her failings that day. It is time for him to change that diaper, get her a drink of water, and put his arms around her. But this also goes both ways. If your husband is stressed over a work or school project, don’t complain about his lack of attention to you on that day or that he is not helping with the children. Take care of the kids, make dinner, rub his neck and tell him you love him. This applies to intimacy as well.
3. Submit one to another: The Bible says the wife is to submit to the husband. However, the Bible also says that the husband is to love his wife (Eph 5:22-33). It is not loving to treat your wife like she is a door mat. Marriages equals mutual respect of each other. This involves discussing important decisions. There are definitely times when Michael says we need to do something that I don’t want to do, but I do it because I trust him that he is wise and since he rarely asks me to do much (outside of caring for the house and Hudson), I do it (though he never asks me to do anything we haven’t talked about, but occasionally we may not agree). Most men want a partner in life, not a puppy. Please treat your wife like an equal! This goes for the wife too. Don’t discount the decisions your husband makes. Don’t make him afraid to lead because of what your reaction might be.
4. Never do any name calling: Words are like wounds, they will heal but always leave a scar. Think twice before opening your mouth. Try to say I love you instead.
5. Do not try to change each other: If there is something you do not like about the person you love before you get married, it isn’t going to magically disappear after the vows and honeymoon are said and done. You have two options here. Either discuss it before marriage (and be open about your own bad habits and such) and try to encourage change, or you need to accept it after marriage. Things CAN change, but it is up to God and not you. As a wife, I certainly do not want to be a “leaky faucet” so I try to take it to the Lord when something irritates me and not get on Michael constantly (and vice versa). Have a teachable spirit and take constructive criticism to the Lord in prayer instead of reacting.
6. Do not correct or criticize in front of others: Thankfully, Michael has never done this to me, but I have been around people who do this. It really does wound! It can discount a persons opinion and make them shut off the spirit of communication because they are afraid they are going to be embarrassed or hurt again. If your spouse says something you consider incorrect, inappropriate, or ignorant, do NOT tell them that in front of others. This is a BIG no-no!
7. Keep your communications free and open: Set aside 30 minutes each evening to sit and discuss your day, feelings, etc. Do not let other things crowd out sharing your hearts with each other. These distractions can come in the way of TV, internet, and yes, even children.
8. Go on weekly dates: Michael and I do not have any spare money for dates, but most of the time (usually Thursday evenings) I will make a meal and we will eat it on a blanket on the family room floor with a lit candle and romantic music playing. We talk about life an avoid talking about school or work, and it helps us to stay connected.
9. Do not let your children crowd out your relationship with your spouse: It is all too easy to get so wrapped up in your child”s cuteness, antics, and milestones that it comes before anything else, but most importantly your spouse. Make sure that you aren’t ignoring your husband or wife in favor of your kids. Your kids grow up and leave eventualy, but it is till death do you part with your spouse. When the kids leave, you want to be able to still have a loving and open relationship with your husband or wife.
10. Give your spouse the freedom to be themselves: Whether this is their hobbies, clothing or hair styles, personality, etc. We don’t have money for me to keep up on the current clothing fashions and such, but Michael always makes sure to budget enough for me to get my hair cut. Even when I am wearing the same clothes as 2 years ago, a stylish cut keeps me feeling pretty and feminine. Budget needs to be taken into consideration. If one of you knows you don’t have the money for something, don’t buy it. Wait till a special occasion comes along and buy it then (after saving for it).

Please do not think I write this with an attitude of pride. I am by no means a marriage guru, especially only having been married less than two years, but after going through some intense hardship, God has not only kept the two of us together, but has knit us even more tightly than ever before. When a couple has the joy of the Lord and a mutual love for Christ, being continually in His Word as a couple and praying together draws you even closer. I love it when my friends tell me that their husband is their best friend and companion. There is nothing better than that. So in closing, marriage is not a challenge to me. It is a life changing, character growing,and love expanding experience. Couples who pray together and find joy in Jesus, WILL find joy in each other.

Remember to keep your priorities straight….

God
Spouse
Children
Church

Book Recommendations:

The Bible!
Preparing for Marriage work books
Intended for Pleasure

Recipe Blog...

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Come see my culinary creations!
http://abetterwaytocook.blogspot.com/

My ongoing praise list...

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* A couple of housing possibilities
* Food in the pantry and refrigerator
* Gifts from dear friends (some anonymous) to pay for necessities
* Health insurance
* A wonderful church with a Godly Pastor and unified congregation.
* Encouraging friends in the area.
* An amazing godly family on both sides that encourages and supports us!
* A beautiful marriage of communication, friendship, and love. I am so grateful for my husband!
* A laptop where I can keep in contact with friends and family far away!
* My piano. It not only is wonderful because I have it to teach, but it adds joy to our household as well.
* Freedom to worship God and to share about Him with others.
* Gift cards
* Michael winning random contests and getting a gift card and movie tickets
* Clothing to wear
* a music book as a surprise gift from my sweet sis-in-law :-D
* Luke’s Ministry to us DTS students (the school has a food pantry and clothing closet)
* Michael's job at Interstate Batteries. While so many people are out of work, he has a job that has full benefits. Not only a blessing, but a miracle!
* A beautiful, happy, content son
* Amazing friends and prayer partners over the world.
* Believing and knowing that God is good, He loves me, and I am His.
* The possibility of going home to NC for Christmas and New Years
* The beautiful Fall. It makes me so happy to eat pumpkin flavored yummies and step on crunchy leaves as I walk.
* Hearing my son say MaMa and DaDa. :-D
* Friends who brought meals and groceries when I was SO sick a few weeks ago.

The Hysteria that is Twilight...

2009-08-20T23:23:00.000-04:00

Read this at your own risk. ;-) I am sure I will step on some toes writing this, but please remember that this is MY opinion. I don't want people arguing over points I make. I do welcome friendly discussion though. ;-)

The Pro's...
This book does encourage abstinence. Bella loves both of her parents and will do anything to protect them. That's about all the "good" I can say about it.

The Con's...
I found Bella to be constantly whiny and petulant. Edward has major stalker tendencies (he watches Bella every night as she sleeps). She lies to her dad constantly. She is consistently pressuring Edward to become immoral. The *only* reason abstinence is promoted is because Edward will lose control and kill Bella if they become intimate. There is some violence. There is a ton of sensuality (Edward and Bella lay next to each other a few different times and just stroke each others skin. There is a lot of mention of "losing control", innuendos, etc). There is more, but I think you get the picture.

My Conclusion...
I personally do not think it was worth the time it took to read this. The style of writing is very bad, as well as just about everything else. I would rather my teen read something worthwhile and wholesome and not something that would encourage them to moon over some weird character in a book. I honestly cannot believe how teens (and some parents) are going nuts over this books. It amazes me!

All throughout history, vampires are evil, soulless creatures who ravage and seduce humans. How can good come out of an evil being? It is like saying that there is "some" good in a demon (which is completely not true). Every culture has a vampire like creature, usually in part of occult practices.

As a Christian, I am called to live a moral life. Morality without Jesus behind it is no more than moralism. Edward and Bella are "abstinent" but not for the reason God wants us to be abstinent. However, they are not moral (they consistently discuss and think about being immoral with other (Matthew 5:28 and Proverbs 23:7 come to mind). With Jesus, it becomes part of our beautiful sanctification process. Jesus wants us to live a pure life. We should constantly be living as though He were right there beside us, watching us (He is there, but because we cannot SEE Him, we don't remember this). I am telling myself this as well because I am so far from being perfect. However, I do not want to read or watch things that could bring me further away from Him and hinder a true and honest relationship with Him.

I am not saying we can never watch or read a secular movie or book. What I am saying is that we need to measure what we do by Scripture and how God tells us to live. I do not believe it is legalistic for me to prefer to read and watch something that does not cause my spiritual walk to falter.

Here are some good verses about not conforming to this world:
Romans 12:2 "And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God
John 17:14 "I have given them Your word; and (AK)the world has hated them, because (AL)they are not of the world, even as I am not of the world. I do not ask You to take them out of the world, but to keep them from (AM)the evil one. They are not of the world, even as I am not of the world. Sanctify them in the truth; Your word is truth. As You sent Me into the world, I also have sent them into the world. For their sakes I sanctify Myself, that they themselves also may be sanctified in truth."
James 4:4 "Ye adulterers and adulteresses, know ye not that the friendship of the world is enmity with God? whosoever therefore will be a friend of the world is the enemy of God."
Galations 5:17-21 "For the flesh lusteth against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh: and these are contrary the one to the other: so that ye cannot do the things that ye would. But if ye be led of the Spirit, ye are not under the law. Now the works of the flesh are manifest, which are these; Adultery, fornication, uncleanness, lasciviousness, idolatry, witchcraft, hatred, variance, emulations, wrath, strife, seditions, heresies, envyings, murders, drunkenness, revellings, and such like: of the which I tell you before, as I have also told you in time past, that they which do such things shall not inherit the kingdom of God. "

If you are looking for a beautiful love story, I would suggest "Jane Eyre", "The Witch of Blackbird Pond", "Under the Greenwood Tree", or "Persuasion" among many hundreds of others I could also recommend.

In my opinion, this series is trite, worthless, and dangerous to a fault. There is no one in the book who is a good role model. I give it zero stars.

True Love's First Kiss...

2009-07-15T20:32:00.000-04:00

Some people have been asking how Michael and I met. I wrote up this little testimony and hope that God will be glorified and His power shown in and through our lives.

~ Learning to Surrender ~

Life does not always go exactly as we plan… and thank the Lord for that! When I was twelve years old, I compiled a list of qualities I wanted in my future husband. The first quality on the list was, of course, “A Christian Man”. My lovely little list also included many other things like him being “debt free” to “having all his own hair and teeth”. It was pretty detailed for a twelve year old to say the least.

Then at the age of fifteen an extreme change happened in my life. All of my friends were “dating” but no one was interested in me. I knew that God and my parents would not be happy with me being “boy crazy” but I did not consider myself to be so because after all, they were just “crushes”. After attending a week long seminar, my heart began to soften and I made a commitment that I would not date and I would let God chose my future husband. Of course, I said to myself “I will do courtship, but I probably will be married by twenty.” Well, twenty came and twenty went and as the years flew by, and me not being interested in any of the guys who were interested in marrying me, I began to worry. Now I knew that worry was a sin and I sure did give Satan a lot of ground in this area. As I watched my friends falling in love and marrying, I would tell Him “Don’t forget about me God… I want to get married too!”

It was finally at the age of twenty-four that I gave this worry to God and experienced freedom like I had never known. At that point of surrender, I told God that even if I never married, He was all-sufficient for me. I then had this refreshed and renewed desire to serve Him wholeheartedly with everything that was in me. God started blessing me in innumerable ways; a dream job at a music studio in Tampa with a wonderful Christian boss and opportunities all over the place to sing and share about Him.

~Trusting God~

In 2005 we moved to North Carolina, and I again struggled with worry… not so much about marriage this time, but about my future. It was definitely a time of not trusting God. Why would He bring about this amazing job in Tampa and then have us move? I clearly know the answer to that now. He wanted me to “trust and obey” for there really is not any other way but Him. I then attended a small Bible College near our home for one semester (and God used that time to draw me even closer to Him). In June of 2006, the Lord clearly led me to return to the Headquarters of our home education program and work there.

~The Courtship~

Michael and I met in Flint, MI at the Riverfront Character Inn (a ministry of the Advanced Training Institute International). He was running in a race and I was working in the kitchen and he came to the Inn to help out. I had already met his wonderful sister Sarah and found a kindred spirit in her. Unknown to me, she had gone home and told Michael that he needed to meet this girl Stephanie! He came by the Inn after he ran in the race to help out and we hit it off immediately with a definite spark. I called my mom and told her I had met an amazing guy but that he would never be interested in me (unknown to me, he thought I would never be interested in him). So we both put anything more out of our minds and he became REALLY busy trying to apply to grad school and traveling for ministry and I was teaching and busy with family and church.

Occasionally I would read his blog and remember how impressed I was with him and his love for God and passion for ministry. We didn’t get back in touch till March, which unknown to me he had already been praying about me and wanting to get to know me better. In April, when my Granny died… he was there to encourage with prayers, scriptures, and a listening ear. He sent me Psalm 121 and that passage became very dear to me during that difficult time. One little story of God's amazing power is when at the beginning of April I knew that I needed to share with him that I did not email guys without them talking to my dad. In my fear that he would run the other way, I hesitated about it for a couple weeks until one night I finally surrendered it to God and prayed and told God that I would wake up in the morning and tell Michael. I knew that if he was serious, he would contact dad and be completely fine with it. When I woke up the next morning, there was an email from Michael telling me that he felt prompted by the Lord to contact my dad. See, when I let God do the work He takes care of me.

In May he went to Glacier Park to work and intern and because of limited access to email, we started writing letters to each other and then in June started talking on the phone (he would drive 30 miles once a week to get a signal and we would talk for a couple hours... although it progressed to talking for hours on end). After starting to talk on the phone, it opened up a new level in our relationship. We started to grow closer as we shared our hearts, faults, thoughts, opinions, and joys with each other.

In July I went to Journey to the Heart and knew that I really needed to pray intensely about Michael while I was there. Even though I had already been praying about our relationship, I wanted to know for sure it was God’s will and not just my own will. I also did not want him to come to visit me in August without knowing for sure if it was exactly what God wanted for me! On our day of prayer and fasting, I took several hours praying primarily for confirmation and peace about Michael. I layed Michael down on the altar which was one of the hardest things I have ever done. Telling God “here is Michael… I give him to you, even if it means giving him up forever”. As I was praying, I felt the presence of God and through certain scriptures, He released me to love Michael. I knew then that God would take care of me and of Michael. Never have I known such peace and contentment in my life… and the assurance that he was God’s will for my life. Even though I had already gradually been falling in love with him throughout the spring and summer, I left Journey to the Heart with a deep love for him, even though I didn’t know exactly what was going to happen.

It was a blessed day in August when he came to visit. We enjoyed being with each other, talking and laughing. He gave me a beautiful necklace that he had bought for me in Montana. He officially asked my dad for permission to court me on August 25 (which he had already sort of asked permission for in April, but my dad (and Michael) really wanted us to develop a deep friendship first).

As the months flew by, we became even closer through email, phone conversations, skype, and letters. I think our record for one phone conversation was 8 hours. We never ran out of things to say (and we still love to talk with each other)! In November I finally met his family and got to see Michael again. I knew that the time was getting close for engagement but I didn't really know when or how. I just knew I was ready to say yes to this amazing and wonderful man whom God had brought into my life.

~ The Engagement ~

Michael had flown in on Saturday Dec. 29th and we had a wonderful weekend together with my family, celebrating my mom and nephew Cade's birthdays and going to church together. On Monday, he told me to be ready by 3:00 and to dress up! Of course I was so excited to be going out to dinner with him and anyone who knows me knows I love to dress up! My Grandma even let us borrow her Cadillac for the evening! We went to a quaint little restaurant in downtown Raleigh that was in an old restored bungalow. As we enjoyed our amazing dinner, we chatted over dinner about God's working in our lives and our love for each other. What a wonderful time of sharing with each other! After finishing our meal I noticed Michael stalling for time, and as I was wondering… he led me outside to a gorgeous "Cinderella" carriage! I had never ridden in one before and I was completely pleasantly surprised!

As we rode on our romantic ride, Michael read me letters that he had written to me over the last few months that shared all the reasons why he wanted to give his life to me. The carriage stopped in front of the magnificent Governor's mansion, and we walked to a nearby corner in front of the home. At this point, I knew what this was all leading up to and had to maintain the tears of joy that I felt coming. My heart was full to overflowing at this point!

He read me the very last entry in the journal and then finished with Psalm 128:1-6: "Blessed is every one that feareth the LORD; that walketh in his ways. For thou shalt eat the labour of thine hands: happy shalt thou be, and it shall be well with thee. Thy wife shall be as a fruitful vine by the sides of thine house: thy children like olive plants round about thy table. Behold, that thus shall the man be blessed that feareth the LORD. The LORD shall bless thee out of Zion: and thou shalt see the good of Jerusalem all the days of thy life. Yea, thou shalt see thy children's children, and peace upon Israel." He read this beautiful Psalm to me, bent down on one knee, and asked me if "I would be his beloved forever". After I finished gasping over my gorgeous ring, I joyfully replied "Yes Michael Breznau, with all my heart!!" He then spun me around for what seemed like forever as we laughed and shouted with happiness at God's many blessings in our lives!

But the surprises of the night were not over yet! We made our way to Mimi's Cafe to get some muffins and coffee and lo and behold... not only were my parents, brother, and Grandma there, but all of Michael's family from Michigan! I was shocked and very happy! We had a wonderful time ringing in the New Year together... two families about to merge.

~ Happily Ever After ~

It is amazing to see God's hand in our relationship. It hasn't been easy for either of us waiting all these years for God's best, but with His help we have waited. Neither of us have dated around. I knew what convictions I had about guys, and I had committed when I was young to remain pure for my future husband. I thank God for all His protection me through all these years. There have been times of wanting my own way and it has only brought along problems for me. I have many testimonies in my life of not trusting Him with my future but God has blessed me so much as I have seen that His way is best and fully put my trust in Him. "Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding." Proverbs 3:5

I don't regret these past years of singleness one bit. I know God has blessed me in so many ways because I have waited on Him for His best. These past couple of years have been a journey for me… of faith, trusting in Him, of finding a deep and pure love that is truly amazing. God does bless those who wait on Him. I can assure you of that. Never in my wildest dreams did I imagine God bringing me such a godly, pure, amazing, strong, and wonderful man... not to mention handsome! And another wonderful blessing is that he accepts and loves me exactly the way I am. I never have to worry that he won't love me or that he will laugh at me when I am silly, discouraged, or upset about something. It is a wonderful think to be unconditionally loved. Neither of us is perfect, but God has brought together two imperfect people who are just right for each other and help build up each other and not tear down! And meeting his family and feeling accepted and loved by them (I love them too!) is even another step of confirmation with us (not to mention how much my family loves him too).

Our wedding was beautiful and I hope it showed how important God is to both of us. On that special day when we became one in Christ, we shared a gift we saved for the one we would marry…our first kiss ever was given to each other!
I now see that everything that has happened in my life has been ordained of God in a sequence of event that has worked together for His good. I would not be sharing this testimony of various things happening in my life if it were not for the work of Jesus. I could not do anything a part from Him. We both know that this uniting together was and is His will and we both love each other tremendously. We are committed that nothing but death will separate us and we will be together through the thick and thin of life. I cannot imagine my life without Michael in it. He is truly a gift from God and I look forward to serving the Lord together as ambassadors for Him! Proverbs 13:12b says “…a longing fulfilled is a tree of life.” Our longing has been fulfilled, in each other and in Him! Praise the Lord for He is good and His mercy endures forever!

Hudson William...

2009-07-08T11:02:00.000-04:00

Can you believe he is already 4 months old?
He is 25 inches long and close to 15 pounds.
The doctor is very pleased with his progress and
says he is very bright for his age

Hello 28...

2009-06-19T09:09:00.000-04:00

27 has been a hard but good year for me. I am now ready to see what God has planned for this new year. :-)

New blog in addition to this one...

2009-05-29T22:07:00.001-04:00

http://abetterwaytocook.blogspot.com/

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3 months...

2009-05-29T15:44:00.000-04:00

Faith Like Potatoes...

2009-05-20T12:59:00.000-04:00

Michael and I watched this movie this past Saturday as we were celebrating his birthday. I was just gearing up to watch the typical *trite feel good* Christian film that seems to infiltrate our society today. But I was very surprised by the message of this film (beside the fact that I personally thought it was well acted and well made, though a little slow paced at times).

Here is a brief synopsis from imdb:
Angus Buchan, a Zambian farmer of Scottish heritage, leaves his farm in the midst of political unrest and racially charged land reclaims and travels south with his family to start a better life in KwaZulu Natal, South Africa. With nothing more than a caravan on a patch of land, and help from his foreman, Simeon Bhengu, the Buchan family struggle to settle in a new country. Faced with ever mounting challenges, hardships and personal turmoil, Angus quickly spirals down into a life consumed by anger, fear and destruction. Based on the inspiring true story by Angus Buchan the book was adapted for the big screen by Regardt van den Bergh and weaves together the moving life journey of a man who, like his potatoes, grows his faith, unseen until the harvest.

There is a moment in the movie, after Angus has come to Christ, where he is burning some brush on his land. The fire spirals out of control and starts heading towards his crops. He looks at Simeon (his right hand man) and says "we must pray for rain" Simeon responds "it will not rain" and Angus repeats "we must pray for rain". Simeon again says that it will not rain because it is not the rain season. Moments later, it starts pouring and puts out the fire. That is faith.

What is faith?
Faith is the confident belief in something unseen.
I believe in Jesus, even though I can't see Him.
I believe He can heal.
I believe He can provide for my every need.

How do I know this? Because He has done both of these in my life. Many fires have come into my life lately, but God has brought cooling rain and put them out every single time. I sat there watching this and realized how little my faith really is and how He is helping it to grow constantly. God has shown His power over and over since we were married. Every month when the bills need to be paid and groceries need to be bought, I worry... and then I remember His goodness and His mercy.

I want faith like Angus. I want faith like George Mueller. I want faith like Hudson Taylor.

The Preservation of Life...

2009-05-13T10:13:00.000-04:00

When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; And through the rivers, they will not overflow you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be scorched, Nor will the flame burn you.” Isaiah 43:2

As most of you know, we walked through a certain fire in mid March when Hudson became very sick. It was the scariest moment of my life when, while nursing him, he choked on his congestion and stopped breathing. Michael had left for work only five minutes previously, so I was all alone. For a brief second I just did not know what to do and just stared at his ashy grey-blue and limp body and all I could do was scream “Jesus: help!” It was then that God said to me “Call 911: Now.” I did just that, and the lady told me to lay him on the floor or a table so I put him on Michael’s desk and she walked me through Infant CPR. I had done First Aid stuff in EXCEL but it was almost 10 years ago. He was steadily breathing again when the ambulance arrived.

We arrived at the hospital about 15 min. later. They struggled to get an IV in him because he was so dehydrated. They put it in one hand and the vein collapsed. They finally got it in the other hand, and the nurse tripped on the IV cord and ripped it out of his hand! That was very scary! The IV team had to come in and put it in his arm and thankfully that worked so they didn’t have to put it in his head. We finally got into our room around 2:00 am. Michael left to go back to the apartment about 2:45 and at 3:00 they decided to deep suction him because he had such bad congestion. I was sitting on the chair/bed and all of a sudden I heard the one nurse tell the other nurse to push the code button. A bunch of doctors and nurses rushed in and got him breathing again. God is so amazing… right as this was going on the chaplain walked in to see how I was doing. What timing!

His visit last a total of 10 ½ days after more coughing and blue episodes. He finally was released after being able to do good without the oxygen! It was so nice to finally leave the hospital. One nice perk is that because I was breastfeeding, I got all my meals free.

Thank you everyone who prayed, sent gifts, called and prayed with us, came and visited in the hospital, came over after we got out of the hospital and helped me around the house or just held Hudson so I could catch up on some needed sleep, and brought meals. Between our church and the church Michael works at, we had dinner every night for a month! That is so amazing! We also were very happy that my in law's came down. It was sad that the first time they got to meet their first grandchild was when he had oxygen tube in his nose and wires all over the place. But we loved seeing them!

I honestly do not know how people get through trials and tribulations without Jesus Christ in their lives. Without Him, I know that I wouldn’t have had the clarity of mind to call 911 or even the ability to perform CPR on my own child. I look at Hudson every single day and as I kiss his chubby cheeks or watch his beautiful smile, I thank God for preserving his life. I know this child, like the man he was named after, has a great purpose in his life and I know that God will direct Michael and I in every step as we raise him. I pray that Hudson will learn to love God with all his heart, soul, mind and strength and that he will serve Him all the days of his life!

Praise reports:
*We have been getting random gifts from people in the mail and that has been used for bills and food. We appreciate it so much. We are overwhelmed by God’s goodness to us!
*We are feeling much better, in regard to the whooping cough!
*Hudson is doing well and is 11 lbs 1 ounce as of this past Monday. That is a four pound gain since the hospital. :-) He is also 25 inches long. I think this is going to be one tall skinny kiddo. :-)

Prayer Requests:
*Hudson and I both have Thrush. I am unable to nurse him at this point because the pain is unbearable for me, so I am pumping and using a bottle. I really want to nurse and refuse to give up easily. Thankfully my milk supply has only increased from pumping. I am on an anti-fungal med (as is Hudson), as well as an antibiotic for a bacterial infection.
*That it would work out for us to get away for a couple of days in June for our first anniversary. I think we just need a break!

Defining Legalism...

2009-05-07T22:03:00.000-04:00

By Charles R. Swindoll

Galatians 2:19 NLT

In contrast to yesterday’s thoughts on liberty, what does it mean to say that legalism puts people under bondage? Legalism is an attitude, a mentality based on pride. It is an obsessive conformity to an artificial standard for the purpose of exalting oneself. A legalist assumes the place of authority and pushes it to unwarranted extremes.

In so many words, legalism says, "I do this or I don't do that, and therefore I am pleasing God." Or, "If only I could do this or not do that, I would be pleasing to God." Or perhaps, "These things that I'm doing or not doing are the things I perform to win God's favor." They aren't spelled out in Scripture, you understand. They've been passed down or they have been dictated to the legalist and have become an obsession to him or her. Legalism is rigid, grim, exacting, and lawlike in nature. Pride, which is at the heart of legalism, works in sync with other motivating factors. Like guilt. And fear. And shame. It leads to an emphasis on what one should not be and what one should not do. It flourishes in a drab context of negativism.

Let's get specific. The one place on earth where we would most expect to be set free is, in fact, the very place we are most likely to be placed into slavery: the church. What happened in the first century can surely happen in the twenty-first. Paul writes to the Galatians of his surprise: "You were running well; who hindered you from obeying the truth?" [5:7].

Allow me to amplify his thought---"When I was with you, some of you were into the 100-meter dash, others were doing the 440 with ease. Still others were into much longer distances . . . you were marathoners. The truth freed you, and I distinctly recall how well you were running as well as how much joy you demonstrated. Who cut in on your stride? Who took away your track shoes? Who told you that you shouldn't be running or enjoying the race? Some of you have stopped running altogether" (Swindoll paraphrase).

How many Christians do you know who exercise the joy and freedom to be a person full of life, living on tiptoe, enjoying spontaneous living---as opposed to the numberless hundreds of thousands who take their cues from the legalists and live life accordingly? Isn't it surprising to anyone who has been set free that anybody would ever want to return to bondage? Surely, that must grieve our God.

Adapted by permission. The Grace Awakening Devotional, Charles R. Swindoll, © 2003, Thomas Nelson, Inc., Nashville, Tennessee. All rights reserved. Copying or using this material without written permission from the publisher is strictly prohibited and in direct violation of copyright law.

Giveaway...

2009-04-27T12:59:00.002-04:00

Go here for a fun giveaway!

Hair cut...

2009-04-21T17:43:00.001-04:00

So I *finally* got my hair cut after 5 months. :-D I feel like a new woman!

Sleepy boy...

2009-04-14T13:56:00.000-04:00

Happy Easter 2009...

2009-04-12T19:33:00.000-04:00

Story behind the Easter Angel onesie, one of my bridesmaids, Jessica Cardwell, bought it as a bacherlorette party gag gift. Little did we know we would be using it for our honeymoon baby. :-P

All smiles...

2009-04-09T11:32:00.000-04:00

Hudson's second real smile (we didn't have a camera handy when he smiled for the first time!)

Hudson is HOME!

2009-04-07T10:55:00.000-04:00

Dear Family and Friends,

After more than 10 days of testing, "code-blue" moments, medication, rest, and recovery, we are finally and safely home. For both Stephanie and I, there were times of great fear and anxiety over our little son's condition, but the Lord graciously gave us peace and comfort in our times of need. Almost every day we were pleasantly surprised by visiting guests who offered their prayers and encouragement. We are so very grateful for each dear one who stopped by during this ordeal. We cannot thank you enough for your smiles, care packages, and thoughtful words that ministered to our hearts during this time.

Each card, balloon, email note, flower, and gift uplifted our hearts and brought joy to our long days. Over the past ten days we have felt overwhelmed by the love of Christ more than ever before. Thank you all for your constant prayers. We are so thankful to the Lord for each one of you.

Children's Medical Center of Dallas did an excellent job treating Hudson and their conscientious care was greatly appreciated. Hudson is doing much better now, and although he still has a cough, the frequency of his struggles has significantly decreased. He is VERY hungry all the time, and this morning he let Mommy and Daddy know this dozens of times through the effective use of his strong lungs and vocal chords.

He is now resting peacefully at home with Stephanie and I. What relief we find in simply seeing him rest soundly with good color in his little, pudgy cheeks. Please continue to pray that he completely recovers from pertussis and is able to regain the weight he lost over the past two weeks. Also, please continue praying for Stephanie's cough as well. She suffered some bruising of ribs due to her coughing and this pain is still hard to bear. For us as a family, please pray that the Father continues to physically recover us, and unite and ground us in the love of His Son, Jesus Christ. Also, the pressure of finishing this semester of seminary will be particularly heavy on my shoulders over the next four weeks, as I try to desperately catch up with all the assignments - I would covet your prayers in this regard.

Thank you for your loving support, prayers, and thoughtful exhortations. We are sincerely grateful for all of you and pray that the Lord blesses you with His peace and grace.

"I will lift up my eyes to the mountains; From where shall my help come? My help comes from the Lord, who made heaven and earth. He will not allow your foot to slip; He who keeps you will not slumber. Behold, He who keeps Israel will neither slumber nor sleep. The Lord is your keeper; the Lord is your shade on your right hand. The sun will not smite you by day, nor the moon by night. The Lord will protect you from all evil; He will keep your soul. The Lord will guard your going out and your coming in from this time forth and forever." ~ Psalm 121

In Christ Alone,
Michael Breznau

Pray for Hudson William...

2009-04-03T05:01:00.001-04:00

Dear Family and Friends,
The last week has been a whirlwind of activity, stress, and no sleep. On Monday the 23rd, Hudson came down with a cough that increasingly worsened over the course of Wednesday and Thursday. We tried several homeopathic methods recommended to us by our midwife and pediatrician, but his situation came to a head at 5:30pm, Thursday night the 26th. Five minutes after I left for evening work, he fell into a coughing spell and stopped breathing. Stephanie quickly tried to help him, but then decided to call 911. Through the instruction of the 911 attendant, Stephanie successfully resuscitated him after 4 attempts. His body had turned very blue and completely limp during this time.

Moments later, the EMS team arrived and rushed Stephanie and Hudson to the Children's Medical Center of Dallas. I got a quick call from Stephanie and immediately left work and headed to the hospital. Between 6:30-10:00pm they performed several tests on him, included a chest x-ray, spinal tap, blood tests, etc...

After receiving oxygen help, he started to regain his color and strength. However, by this time he had lost 1.5 pounds and was severely dehydrated. At first his chest x-ray showed evidence of neo-natal pneumonia, but now the official diagnosis is "pertussis." This is more practically known as the Whooping cough.

Around 3:00am he had another episode and went "code blue." Praise be to the Lord, he recovered fine and now is resting well. To say the least, we need your prayers. Many, many wonderful, loving people have blessed us with their visits and prayers and we are so grateful to the Lord for their care. The doctor said that he has never seen I child with this leave earlier than 4 days or later than 34 days. So, it may be a while. He was supposed to be able to go 12 hours without artificial oxygen before he can leave and is now officially off oxygen, but still has coughing episodes and turns blue so they don't want to release him until he stops doing that.

We do ask for your prayers during this time. Please pray that Hudson will recover thoroughly and quickly, without any lasting side effects. Also please pray for my dear Stephanie, that she would also heal from her sickness (she also has the whooping cough) and is extremely exhausted. Please pray also that I will be able to balance my school work (that is rapidly piling up), work, and family.

Thank you for your prayers and encouragement. We love you all!

"When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flame will not set you ablaze. For I am the Lord, your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior. ~ Isaiah 43:2-3

In Christ Alone,
Michael Breznau

Our Beautiful Birth Story...

2009-03-08T22:21:00.000-04:00

I want to share our miraculous (or as my midwife Donnellyn says, record-breaking) birth story. It may get long so bear with me, k?

Sunday, the 1st, was a wonderful day. We went to church and they had planned on having a get together for our SS class at our SS teacher's house. Well, at the last minute (or so I thought) they changed the plans that the girls went to one house and the guys went to another. Michael drove me to the Howard's house where he was going to drop me off. Lo and behold, he walked me to the door where I was greeted by "Surprise!". I was completely overwhelmed by my loving friends and the beautiful baby shower they surprised me with. The food was delicious, and the cupcakes were the best EVER! We got some really nice gifts, but my favorite part of all was sitting around talking and getting to know those lovely ladies better.

Sunday evening I went to bed not feeling the greatest, but I chalked it up to being tired and knowing that I WAS almost 9 months pregnant. After all, I wasn't due for another 2 1/2 weeks and was hoping that he would wait to come until my mom could get here! Around 1:15 am I woke up feeling a gradual gush. I thought I was wetting my bed!!!!! It was the weirdest feeling ever. After three times of heading to the restroom, I realized that this was not normal so I called my mom and she immediately told me to call my midwife. Michael called Donnellyn and told her some of my symptoms and about me leaking (well, more like gradual gushing). She decided she definitely needed to come and check it out. She lives close to an hour away, so she needed time to get her things together and get here. Michael called her again as she was driving because I had started having regular contractions 3 min. apart. I then talked to my sister who also said it probably would be a while so I needed to go back to sleep. Thankfully Jillian had sent me my birth kit and I had gotten it only days earlier.

When she arrived, she tested the fluid to make sure it was amniotic (which is definitely was) and by that time I was already dialated to a two! Most everyone still thought though that this baby probably wouldn't arrive before nighttime (at the earliest) so everything was pretty laid back. She also told me to try to sleep, but I just couldn't!!! I was still gushing amniotic fluid and having contractions so I couldnt relax enough to go to sleep. Donnellyn then had to go back home to check on her little granddaughters who were visiting and get the rest of her stuff together. Her Apprentice (and my doula) Laurie came a little before DOnnellyn left and stayed with me till Donnellyn was able to return (Laurie was amazing btw, and very calm). Michael held on to me and told me how much he loved me and was so encouraging!

At this point, facts become hazy. The next thing I remember (a few hours later) I told Laurie that I was experiencing pressure in the front and then a few min. later told her I felt the need to push! She of course told me not to push but to try to relax and helped me to the bed. Donnellyn then came back and checked me and I was dialated to an 8!

Donnellyn called my friend Hannah (Chapman) Tallo, who I had planned on getting together for lunch that day, and asked her if she wanted to joing our birthing party. Well, Hannah, who wants to be a midwife and just needs to get her license, automatically said yes and came right over. So I had three wonderful ladies all encouraging and coaching me through it.

I got on the bed (at this point I had been laboring in the shower, and in different positions with the birth ball on the bed) and they propped me up with pillows behind my head. Donnellyn then started working with me to make sure I was breathing correctly and "singing my baby" out (meaning, making low moaning noises instead of using a higher pitch groan or a scream). She then told me I could push, but to make sure I used my lower body to push, not my face and neck. As things progressed, she told me she could see the head. Here I was in the middle of labor, hurting terribly, but when she told me that, I just couldn't wait to see him! I continued breathing and pushing over and over again trying to make sure I did as she told me to.

Little by little he inched his way out, and I felt this incredibly painful burning sensation called "the ring of fire" and with a final push, little Hudson rushed into his new world and into my arms at 9:45 am. All I remember at that point is a rush of emotions... relief that the pain had ended, happiness that he was here, and joy at how God had given us such a precious gift. Tears ran down my face as I looked at him laying on my tummy and marveled at his beautiful little self.

I was so happy that both sides of the family were able to hear the birth over the phone. As soon as he came out, they had to do a couple of stitches, but I was starving! Michael went and got me a sirloin steak burger and a strawberry shake from Jack in the Box. I couldn't finish the burger, but I sipped every bit of that yummy shake down.

So here I am... a mother. It is such a beautiful feeling. I remember my mom and sister telling me there is no other love like it in the world and I completely agree! I knew there was a little life inside of me for 9 months, but it wasn't until he rushed out of his former home and they laid him on my chest that the full reality set in. I was a mom and here was my beautiful son.

Watching my wonderful husband cuddle our son and talk and sing to him, and seeing Hudson respond with cooing and baby talk less than 5 min. after he arrived was amazing to me! We have been reading scripture and singing songs to him for the last 8 months and he definitely recognizes our voices.

My homebirth experience is one I will never forget. God truly blessed me with a beautiful birth... 3 hours of active labor and 56 min. of pushing! These ladies are amazing and I will definitely recommend Donnellyn as a midwife wherever I go and to whomever will listen. Please pray for me as I continue to recover from giving birth.

Through my labor and delivery, I learned to rely even more on God, plus I saw the amazing strength of my husband as he cared for me, and helped me through a really hard time. I praise God every day for keeping me safe as well as all the blessings I so undeservedly have received from Him.

Dear Father, I thank you with every breath that is in my body. I thank You for being there for me with Your loving hand on my shoulder as I labored and was in pain. I thank you for my amazing husband who loves me so much and is constantly giving of himself for me and our boy. I thank you for my precious son. I thank you for his good health and that he came into our world in Your timing.

Some Pictures...

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Pictures by Laurie Campbell (my doula)
http://www.flickr.com/photos/lauriemelissaphotography/

Announcing Hudson William Breznau...

2009-03-02T19:59:00.000-05:00

I am now the mother of Hudson William Breznau!!!!
Born this morning at 9:45am, 7 lbs. 14 oz., 21.5" long!!!

My water broke around 1:15 am. I am so amazed. Three hours of active labor and only 56 min. of pushing. The worst pain I've ever experienced, but oh so worth it. Normal amount of bleeding and I did tear a little, but only two stitches worth. My midwife Donnellyn was incredible, and the two CPO's Laurie, and Hannah (Chapman) Tallo were wonderful as well. :-D The funny thing is that Hannah and I had planned to go to lunch today. Instead, she came to my house and helped deliver a baby. ;-)

He is so beautiful and nursing good. It is so funny to hear him gulping away. :-D

We named him after Hudson Taylor the Missionary, because of how he encouraged us with his work to live a life of faith. The William is after my wonderful loving Father who, other than Michael, is the most Godly man I know.

i feel like I got hit by a truck, but am so happy. I will post pictures soon. Thanks for prayers y'all. I am so shocked I went so early, but I can only imagine he would have been a lot bigger if I had gone all the way to the end. We both feel very blessed with our precious son and pray that God will help us to be good parents to him!

Yummy recipes...

2009-03-01T09:08:00.000-05:00

This is for you girls who love to cook! These are easy and yummy recipes!

Whole Wheat Popover
3 large eggs
1 1/2 cups milk
1 cup whole wheat flour
3/4 tsp. salt
t tblsp. honey
1/2 tsp. vanilla

Thoroughly mix all ingredients together in order given.

Pour evenly into greased muffin cups at least 3/4 full. Keep making sure you stir the batter in the bowl as the flour has a tendency to settle at the bottom.

Bake at 450 for 15 min. Turn oven temperature to 350 and continue to bake about 20 min longer until golden brown.

Cool 5 min. before removing from pan. Serve immediately with butter, any flavor of all-fruit jam, and homemade honey sweetened whipped cream.

Easy Quiche
4 eggs
1 1/2 milk
1 tsp. salt
2 cups cheese
2 tbslp. flour

350 oven
Combine eggs, milk, and salt. Toss cheese with flour. Add cheese mixture to egg mixture. Pour into pie shell or if wanting low carb, just pour into greased dish. Bake 40-45 min. Let stand 10 min. before serving.

Variations:
You can add any cook veggie or meat to this dish. :-)

My ABC's...

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A- Age: 27 (almost 28! Does time flie by or what?)

B - Bed size: Full

C - Chore you hate: Dishes

D - Dog's Name: don't have one.. wish I did! We want to get a lab someday!

E - Essential start your day item: Michael's good morning kiss!

F - Favorite actor(s): It's a tie between Gregory Peck and Jimmy Stewart

G - Gold or Silver: Silver! or White gold

H - Height: 5'7"

I - Instruments you play(ed): Piano, Clarinet, and I sing. In fact I consider voice my first instrument and love to sing all the time (although it makes it harder when baby is kicking my diaphragm)! :-P

J - Job title: wife, voice and piano teacher, sales rep.

K - Kid(s): soon will be one little boy!

L - Living arrangements: A one bedroom/one bath/kitchen/dining/living carriage apartment on the back of a mansion.

M - Mom's name: Dawn

N – Nicknames: Honey, Princess, Punkin', Aunt Steffie, Kim

O - Overnight hospital stays: None

P - Pet Peeve: Picky eaters who say they don't like something but haven't ever tried it! People who are rude, and chalk it up to it being their personality like it is an excuse to say whatever comes to their mind.

Q - Quotes you like: "Trying to do the Lord's work in your own strength is the most confusing, exhausting, and tedious of all work. But when you are filled with the Holy Spirit, then the ministry of Jesus just flows out of you." - Corrie ten Boom

R - Right or left handed: Right

S - Siblings: 1 sister Jillian (31) and 1 brother Philip (24). We were all born in June and our birthdays are within a week and ahalf of each others. I so enjoyed sharing my birthdays with them growing up! My favorite birthday as a child was when we had a joint b-day party at a park and a neighbor made a huge cake with three sections of decor on top... a huge ice cream cone made out of cupcakes for Jilian, ballet for me, and dinosaurs for Philip.

T - Time you wake up: usually around 7 when Michael gets up and I then will make his breakfast and pack a lunch for him!

U- Underwear: of course!

V - Vegetable you dislike: Eggplant *shivers*

W - Ways you run late: getting distracted too easily

X - X-rays you've had: arm, leg, chest, stomach, hip

Y - Yummy food you make: Ask Michael! He seems to like anything I make. ;-)

Z - Zoo Animal: Monkeys and Elephants

Progress of Baby Breznau...

2009-02-24T16:47:00.000-05:00

37 weeks...

36 weeks...

2009-02-18T15:37:00.000-05:00

Will You Be My Valentine?

2009-02-14T09:14:00.000-05:00

Growing up, this day was always something that I remember as getting festive candy from mom and dad and giving my friends and family little "love" notes. As I got into my teen years, I still enjoyed sharing notes and giving (and getting) ;-) candy on this day. Finally, as an adult woman I still continued this tradition, even though I didn't technically have a Valentine.

Last year was my first time with my very own Valentine but we spent it a 1,000 miles apart. So, today as I finally spend this Valentine's Day with my dear Hubby I am again reminded of God's faithfulness to me in bringing me a man who is true to God's word, who does not compromise what he believes is right, and who loves me steadfastly and truly. He never gets angry with me, raises his voice, or ignores me. He isn't perfect and has his little quirks and annoyances (as do I, and I am sure I have many more than he does) :-P, but I could never have dreamed up a husband who is more and more like my Knight in Shining Armour. God is the perfect and ultimate matchmaker. I am 100% convinced of that!

I have seen that my life was not empty without Michael, but He has given me Michael to complete His plan in my life. I have had Jesus in my life since I was 7 years old. He is enough for me. It wasn't until I fully relinquished all rights for marriage that God gave me complete peace. I was never what you would consider marriage obsessed, but I still wanted MY way about it. It was one of the hardest things I have ever done saying to God "If you want me to remain single the rest of my life, I will do it and I will serve You." It was two years later that I met my husband. Now, I am not saying that these are some magic words that will bring a husband to you single girls. I said it thinking that it may be what God wanted for me and I believed and lived it. And you know what? I was so very happy to be that way until I met Michael and then I knew (with much prayer mind you) that God had this as the next step in my life.

If I had married Michael because I thought marriage would solve all my problems and fulfill all my needs, I don't think we would be very happy right now. We both know that God brought us together in His timing and in His will. We ARE blissfully happy, though we may be barraged by me not feeling well, Michael being in school and working, bills, etc. God has consistently provided for us and has given us a deeper love and understanding for each other in these last 8 months.

Lest I sound preachy, remember that this is my story. :-) You may very well have already done this. I am not telling you to squelch your desire to be married or giving you a formula for what to do in your life. God works in different ways in different peoples' lives. This is just my life and how He has worked miracles with this little girl who is full of faults. And who says you have to listen to me anyway? ;-) *grin*

So, to my married AND single friends, may this day be a reminder of what Jesus did for us, and may we tell our husbands (or sweethearts, or just some little children who may not have encouragement in their lives) today what they mean to us and how much we love them.

I love you Michael. Happy Valentine's day AND 8 month anniversary. :-D
<3 <3 <3

34 weeks...

2009-02-07T20:56:00.000-05:00

Apron giveaway...

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http://www.mamakatslosinit.blogspot.com/

A Sound Kick in the Ribs...

2009-01-20T02:52:00.000-05:00

This baby loves to kick me… which is probably indicative that he is one energetic little boy. :-P He does NOT like the Doppler and it will usually jump and try to kick it away from him. He is moving a lot more and it has been thrilling for Michael and I to watch my belly shift as he does his little gymnastics. It is such a wonderful thing to see! By the way, his is not going to be a itty bitty boy. My midwife told me that she thinks he will be at LEAST 8 ½ pounds. I will be 32 weeks on Wednesday (yep, thus starts the 8 week countdown!), and was measuring 34 weeks this past Saturday.

As for my health, I am being very careful of my sugar intake (I don’t eat any processed and refined sugar… but I am trying to watch my natural sugars as well) and am also not eating any breads and stuff except for an occasional whole wheat pita or tortilla. I am also staying away from any corn products because it is an inflammatory. I can’t believe how my energy levels have dropped in the past week, resulting in TWO days where I had two naps (one in the morning and one in the afternoon and still went to bed at a decent time and slept good)! It must just be pregnancy, because I am taking Supermom, cod liver oil, vitamin C, chlorophyll, and calcium.

BTW, any of you pregnant ladies struggling with heartburn, you do NOT have to take Tums! I had it horribly and started using raw apple cider vinegar and papaya enzymes and it has gone away for the most part, unless I eat something I shouldn’t. When that happens, I take a few enzymes and it vanishes within minutes.

It has been SO much fun preparing for his arrival. Since my mother is making beautiful baby bedding, I don’t have to worry about registering for any (I never could find anything I really “loved” anyway until she showed me the fabric and asked what I thought. It is perfect.) God has really been providing... baby clothes, a bassinet, a crib and changing table, a pack n’ play, etc. I m so grateful to Him! I don’t have to put any of these things on my registry and can now put other smaller things like diapers, a diaper champ, etc. It does seem funny to be registering again, considering I was just registering for my wedding eight months ago. :-P :-D ;-)

The apartment is coming along, and I was even able to teach lessons on Saturday! It has been wonderful putting everything in order. The bathroom and kitchen are pretty much in place, but our bedroom, closet, and knowing what to do with all the boxes of books (there are probably 400 books in all!) is proving a bit challenging.

I am excited about all the people who have said they want to come and visit this summer and meet Peanut! :-D Any and all are welcome, though you will have to get a hotel or stay at the Dallas Training Center.

The Lord has been really good to us and I praise Him for His goodness and mercy!

Prayer Requests…
* More voice and piano students for me.
* Either free or REALLY inexpensive bookcases!
* Michael’s school… that he would grow in wisdom and understanding AND get good grades and be able to do all his assignments in time. God has really blessed him with almost perfect grades so far and he wants to continue to do his best in all that he does!
*That baby will continue in his head down position and continue growing healthy and strong.

A Very Special Day...

2009-01-14T14:58:00.000-05:00

"The just man walketh in his integrity: his children are blessed after him."
Proverbs 20:7

On January 4th of this year, I celebrated a very special anniversary day.

25 years ago, a wonderful man who I call Daddy officially gave me his last name and I legally became his daughter. Since the moment he came into my life when I was 14 months old, he has been a source of love, joy, peace, wisdom, caring, and steadfastness. He was a 32 year old bachelor when he married my mom and took the responsibility of two little girls. Up until Michael came into my life, Dad has been the most godly man I have ever known. He has also loved my mother unconditionally, which has been a great example to me!

Someone recently asked me to sum up my relationship with my dad and this is what I said...
My dad has always been constant and consistent. He knows what he believes, and always had certain rules but they were given because he loved me. He always took the time to listen to me and never discounted anything I ever said to him and tried to always understand me. i think the key to our relationship was showing genuine love and understanding and him putting my life, feelings, and well being before his. I didn't ask him to do that, but he did it anyway because he is unselfish. As you can tell, I love my dad very much. :-)

I love you Daddy!

Life is Splendid...

2009-01-14T14:07:00.000-05:00

30 weeks. I am now 31 weeks, but there isn't much of a difference. :-P 9 more weeks until D-Day! :-D I can't wait to meet my little man!

2008 in a nutshell...

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1. What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before?
Got married, moved to Texas, got pregnant, was a official nanny, had a white christmas, made a snowman, ate some new things (scallops, crawfish,

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I made a goal to eat healthier, get in shape and lose weight. I lost 25 pounds by the time my wedding came around. Of course, I've now put it all back on but with good reason. ;-) I also resolved to grow closer to Jesus and He now means more to me than ever before!

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
My sister had my niece Lilly in July and Betsy just had little Jack this week!

4. Did anyone close to you die?
no.

5. What countries did you visit?
None this year.

6. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
a lot of things

7. What date from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
June 14th when I married the love of my life!

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Being pregnant and working two jobs... AND making dinner for my hubby every night!

9. What was your biggest failure?
Worrying way too much about what people think of me and trying to keep way too many people happy and pleased.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Morning sickness :-P

11. What was the best thing you bought?
My maternity coat! It feels so nice to have a warm belly.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
My husband for taking care of me so well when I was so sick!

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
a lot of unmentioned people

14. Where did most of your money go?
wedding, bills, rent, food

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Getting married, getting pregnant, and all the ways God has provided for us

16. What song will always remind you of 2008?
Rhapsody on a Theme by Paganini... the song I walked down the aisle to!

17. Compared to this time last year, are you: happier or sadder?
much much happier (not that i was unhappy before, I am just ecstatic now)!

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
spent even more time with my family

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
worrying over little stuff

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
With family.

21. How will you be spending New Years?
We are just spending time as a family... eating pizza, popping popcorn, watching a movie, and then ushering in 2009 with some yummy Wildberry pomegranate non-alcoholic bubbly!

24. What was your favorite TV program?
Monk

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
nope.

26. What was the best book you read?
The Woman in White

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
can't think of anything new

28. What did you want and got?
my hubby

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
Prince Caspian

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
we were on our honeymoon and michael got some sparkling non-alcoholic grape juice from the Blltmore and we got chinese take out and a boston creme cake and had a fun evening talking and eating. :-)

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Not worrying so much about pleasing people through the whole wedding process.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2007?
I decided to wear what I wanted as long as I felt pretty and wonderful in it! Therefore, I wore extremely feminine dresses and tops. Loved them!

34. What kept you sane?
Jesus, Michael, and much prayer

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
I love Tony Shaloub... though I wouldn't say I fancied him. :-P

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
the whole presidential election... sigh

37. Who did you miss?
my family

38. Who was the best new person you met?
hmmm... I have met a ton of new people... would have to say Jen Bullinger.... but i also have enjoyed getting to know Shanna R., the Knight girls, the girls I met in Arlington from the Crossings, Michael's friends, the Daughtry's, Joe and Joanna Howard and their little munchkins, the Armitage's, and so many more!

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008:
letting go and learning how to live a life of faith

Happy new Year everyone! May this next year bring you closer to our Lord Jesus and may you find many opportunities to share Him with others. Love y'all!

Merry Christmas 2008...

2008-12-23T09:21:00.000-05:00

Dear Family and Friends,

What a wonderful and gracious Lord we serve! Every day we find ourselves standing in awe at the amazing works of our Almighty God. It has been a priceless blessing to know that so many faithful friends have been lifting our family, ministry, and education up before the Lord in prayer. All of you have been an immense encouragement to us through your prayers, letters, and phone calls, and we are sincerely grateful for each one of you.

It is hard to believe another year has already come to an end! It has been a calendar of tremendous blessing and change in both of our lives. We had a beautiful wedding on June 14th and a lovely honeymoon in North Carolina and Georgia. We brought all of Stephanie’s belongings with us, including her beautiful piano! We had a wonderful, relaxing two weeks and then headed down to Dallas to settle into our new home and life together.

In July we found out that we will be parents come March! What a delightful surprise and blessing. Children are truly a gift and heritage from the Lord and it has been wonderful growing closer together as a couple during this time of waiting for our little boy to enter the world.

Michael: From January to December, God has been daily increasing our faith and building our trust in His great power. Oh the depths of Christ’s rich love and mercy. Marrying my dear Stephanie is more marvelous than I ever could have imagined. And now to be expecting our very own little son in just a few months! I am simply overwhelmed by the numerous gifts God has bestowed so immeasurably upon us. The past year of education at Dallas Theological Seminary has also been one of exciting concepts and further understanding of God and His matchless Word. Having this opportunity to be trained and mentored by such godly and humble men is truly an answer to pray and a great privilege. My constant prayer is that God would enable me to be faithful to utilize all I learn for His great glory alone.

Throughout the year God has brought along various opportunities for us to reach out with His Gospel. In September I enjoyed sharing from the Word of God and preaching His Good News to those in an inner-city mission here in Dallas. The month of October came with a couple of opportunities to temporarily assist in the music ministry at a congregation located in the suburbs of Dallas, pastored by a friend of mine from school. And earlier this month, Stephanie and I enjoyed leading a large Bible study group in a joyous time of carol singing.

The Lord has continued to meet our needs through several jobs and the gracious benevolence of His people. I have now been working as the security/hospitality coordinator at Dallas Bible Church for more than a year, and also enjoy doing part-time sales work for Tommy Nelson’s Song of Solomon Bible Resources.

Stephanie: I feel so blessed to be married to an amazing, godly man who loves and takes care of me. I never dreamed marriage could be so wonderful. God has taught me so much since June, but the biggest lesson I have learned is living a life of Faith. It is wonderful to see God providing every single day and knowing that He holds me in the palm of His hand and will never let me go. I am blessed beyond measure with my husband and baby boy. We are both so excited about little “Peanut” coming in March and are having fun preparing for him, praying for him, and talking to him.

I started teaching piano in September and all my students so far are from DTS. I thoroughly enjoy every single one of the wonderful children I teach. I also started working as a part-time nanny in September for two little girls, three year old Graydon and ten month old Riley. It has been fun, and an opportunity for me to temporarily serve a family in need. Riley has hip dysplasia and was put in a half body cast in the beginning of October to correct her condition. Thankfully she is a happy, contented baby and has done very well! The job has now ended, and I definitely miss working with these precious girls. I’ve also really enjoyed getting to know some Seminary wives and am excited about upcoming activities with the school and starting a Bible study with them.

We are really enjoying getting involved in our new church, Redeemer Bible and look forward to joining the fellowship there soon, and being able to minister in various capacities, including the choir. God has been so gracious and faithful. We both are so very excited to see what He holds in our future and how He will yet again show His power in and through our lives. We thank the Lord for your friendship, love and prayers! May the Lord bless and keep you in this next year as you continue to seek Him in every capacity of your life.

Have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!

Love in Christ,
Michael, Stephanie, & Baby

Please Pray For:
• A safe delivery of our baby boy this coming March and good health for his mommy.
• The upcoming semester at Dallas Seminary, that the Lord would grant wisdom, focus, concentration, and blessing in all the studies.
• The Lord to open up doors of opportunity for ministry during the next year in abundant ways.
• Much needed financial provision for seminary tuition and related expenses.

3909 Swiss Ave. Box 188 • Dallas, TX 75204 • MBreznau@yahoo.com

27 weeks...

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This picture is from Dec. 17th. :-) I am almost 28 weeks now.

Six Beautiful Months...

2008-12-14T08:38:00.000-05:00

It is hard to believe that today we celebrate our 6 month anniversary!

I am so glad I married you. You are the one who makes my heart uplift, skip a beat, smile, laugh, and be joyful. I still get butterflies in my stomach when I see you!

You always care for me so much... rubbing my feet, helping me around the apartment, buying me little surprises every once in a while, talking heart-to-heart, giving me hugs, rubbing my neck, and oh yes, I love your kisses. :-D ;-)

I love you Michael with all my heart and I know that 6 months ago was the most special day of my life. I look forward to growing old with you honey!

~All I Ask of You~
No more talk of darkness,
Forget these wide-eyed fears
I'm here, nothing can harm you
my words will warm and calm you
Let me be your freedom,
let daylight dry your tears.
I'm here with you, beside you,
to guard you and to guide you...

Say you love me every waking moment,
turn my head with talk of summertime...
Say you need me with you now and always...
Promise me that all you say is true
that's all I ask of you

Let me be your shelter
let me be your light
You're safe, No one will find you
your fears are far behind you...

All I want is freedom,
a world with no more night
and you, always beside me, to hold me and to hide me...

Then say you'll share with me
one love, one lifetime
let me lead you from your solitude
Say you need me with you here, beside you...
anywhere you go, let me go too
Love me, that's all I ask of you...

Say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime...
say the word and I will follow you...
Share each day with me,
each night, each morning...
Say you love me...

You know I do...

Love me - that's all I ask of you
Anywhere you go let me go too
Love me - that's all I ask of you...

And the Blessings continue to pour out...

2008-12-12T08:24:00.000-05:00

I am simply amazed by how it just continues. :-)

*Blessing Number Five*
We found a beautiful Dining Room Set for only $25.00! I will post a picture after we pick it up. We have been eating on a card table, so this is so nice.

*Blessing Number Six*
Someone here at school anonymously put $40 in a card and put it in Michael's school box. :-D

*Blessing Number Seven*
The same couple who are giving us the crib and changing table offered us the 700 square foot apartment above their garage rent free. :-D They have done it for DTS students in the past. We are praying about it and weighing the pro's and con's. Just because something sounds wonderful doesn't mean we want to jump into it without first making sure it is what God wants us to do. I will keep you updated!

*Blessing Number Eight*
Someone anonymously sent me a me a gift card in the mail. I opened the envelope and there was no note or anything, just a gift card for $200 for Destination Maternity! It said Merry Christmas, but otherwise no clue as to who sent it. I had bought a coat at Target, but if I can one at DM later today, then I will just take back the one to Target. :-D Whoever it was, I am VERY grateful!

Isn't the Lord wonderful?

The words to this beautiful Hymn says it all...
"I Stand Amazed"
I stand amazed in the presence
Of Jesus the Nazarene,
And wonder how He could love me,
A sinner, condemned, unclean.

O how marvelous! O how wonderful!
And my song shall ever be:
O how marvelous! O how wonderful!
Is my Savior’s love for me!

For me it was in the garden
He prayed: “Not My will, but Thine.”
He had no tears for His own griefs,
But sweat drops of blood for mine.

In pity angels beheld Him,
And came from the world of light
To comfort Him in the sorrows
He bore for my soul that night.

He took my sins and my sorrows,
He made them His very own;
He bore the burden to Calvary,
And suffered and died alone.

When with the ransomed in glory
His face I at last shall see,
’Twill be my joy through the ages
To sing of His love for me.

The Beauty of His Blessings...

2008-12-09T17:40:00.000-05:00

Sometimes it is hard to put into writing how God works in miraculous ways... trying to find the words to accurately describe our awe and reverence of His power. So many times I feel that I lack faith and trust. He always comes through, but yet I still doubt.

Let me tell you God's latest working in our life. :-)

*Blessing Number One*
On Saturday we only had a little bit in our bank account and rent was due and we needed groceries. Times are hard for everyone and two of my family's hadn't yet paid me (they are struggling just as much as we are) and Michael wouldn't get his paycheck until the 12th. We started praying and crying out to Him for help. I ended up playing the piano for Lauren and Adam Bell to sing at the Couples Christmas Conference at the Dallas Training Center Saturday night. To my complete surprise, they gave me a gift card to "Le Madeline" as a thank you. We went there on Sunday for lunch and what a treat!

Monday morning came and Michael went and talked to the finance department and asked that they hold our check until our paychecks came in on friday and they graciously agreed to that.

*Blessing Number Two*
Michael yet again won second place at his work and so we got another $50 gift card to a restaurant. :-D We will be celebrating our 6 month anniversary with it. :-D

Blessing Number Three... and what a miracle it is!
We were asked to lead a Christmas Carol sing-a-long at this Bible study that meets at the church where Michael works. Michael led and I played the piano. These people are really godly and truly have a close relationship with the Lord that is so encouraging to see and hear about. About a 100 people come to this Bible Study.

We finished and were about to walk off stage but Mr. S. (the leader) said, "Don't go quite yet, we have a little something for you". He then pulls out a card and opens it and reads it "O come all ye faithful... on your first Christmas together, may you remember His first Christmas". He then says "here is $100 bill for each of you". We were not expecting anything at all so we were shocked!

He then continued... "AND these two young people are really hard working and are EACH working two jobs... here is another $100 for each job" What... now it was up to $600?

And he still continues... "AND she is pregnant, so here is ANOTHER $200" and then he digs in his pocket... and says "aha, another $200 for you!" :-D I was completely overwhelmed and crying at this point. :-) $1,000! The Lord knew our need before we did and provided it for us. We can now pay for rent, AND I can buy some much needed winter clothes. There were so many things I needed...a winter coat, pants, boots, etc. for MI and I idn't have anything...but God knew all along!

*Blessing Number Four*
A lady came up to me after the Bible Study and gave us a crib and changing table! She had some more stuff for us too!

I have never had my faith tested like I have since June. Growing up in a middle class family where we weren't poor, but we weren't rich, my dad had a steady job at (GTE) verizon for 25 years. My faith has increased and grown in boundless ways since June. Sure it is been hard in some ways since June, but I wouldn't trade one single moment of it. Not only have I grown in MY faith, but we have grown closer together.

Thank you Lord for not only your provision, but your great mercy for us! I love you and I praise You!

Update on my health...

2008-12-06T11:14:00.000-05:00

I went to the doctor with my midwife this past week so I could get another opinion on the swelling and weight gain. He gave me a glowing report and said he does NOT believe I am heading into PreClampsia. Praise the Lord! He believes the weight gain is familial, but the swelling is never good so I still need to be careful but not worry about it (if I know I am doing what i am supposed to). He was VERY pleased at the very strict (but definitely doable) diet my midwife had put me on and told me to keep up the good work. He encouraged me to exercise more, but said that everything I was doing was right on track! I even lost a pound since my last pre-natal on nov. 20th (which is good because it was water weight and I have been drinking 3 quarts every day so it is good! Don't worry I am not trying to lose weight, just trying not to gain anymore weight until the very last.) He gave us the go ahead to travel!

God provided money for us to go to Lapeer, Michigan for Christmas! I am so excited. :-D We will be there December 18-Jan.4. We are both really looking forward to it! Praise the Lord for His provision. :-) We hope to see some of y'all while we are there!

Hopefully this will get to be my first White Christmas ever!!!!!

God is so good!

Today I am so thankful for...

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...Michael
...our little boy growing inside of me!
...our families in NC & MI
...God's daily provision & faithfulness
...a cute little apartment at a wonderful price
...friends
...food!
...crisp weather
...smiles
...wonderful piano students
...that Michael likes my cooking :-P
...pecan pie
...leaves falling from the tree and crunching beneath my feet
...seeing my breath in the air
...pumpkins
...that Jesus is in my life and will never leave nor forsake me!

Are you thankful? Not just today... but every day?

I pray that the Lord makes me grateful each and every day of the year... not just on the day we are *supposed* to be thankful. :-)

Photos...

2008-11-26T08:58:00.000-05:00

Here is one of the amazing photos that Hope Knight took of Michael and I last Saturday...

You can find more on her website or on my facebook. :-)
http://hkphotography.wordpress.com/

Our little man...

2008-11-22T10:59:00.000-05:00

:-D

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23 weeks...

2008-11-20T00:26:00.000-05:00

well, I am finally taking another picture of my belly. I haven't taken one since week 18!
I also got a haircut today. :-D

Studying God's Word...

2008-11-13T02:11:00.000-05:00

"We fail in our duty to study God's Word not so much because it is difficult to understand, not so much because it is dull and boring, but because it is work. Our problem is not a lack of intelligence or a lack of passion. Our problem is that we are lazy."
~ R. C. Sproul

Urgent Prayer...

2008-11-09T19:06:00.001-05:00

I have been struggling with severely swollen feet and ankles for the past couple of weeks. Being that this is my first baby, I just chalked it up to normal pregnancy swelling. I was talking to my sister the other day and mentioned that I was struggling with this. She immediately became concerned, especially since I am not quite 22 weeks. She told me to drink more water, eat more protein, walk more, put my feet up, AND to talk to my midwife ASAP.

Well, I talked to my midwife today and she was very concerned as well. Her and my sister are both thinking that this is an early sign of possibly getting Preeclampsia. http://www.preeclampsia.org/ It is good we caught it now, but I have to be ultra careful to do everything I need to so it won't go into it. Once you get Preeclampsia, you have it and can't get rid of it. You will end up having a premature baby by C-section in the hospital. This is a very very dangerous condition.

So I ask with all my heart that you join Michael and I in prayer for this little one and myself. I really appreciate it!

Love y'all! <3

Sweet Friend...

2008-11-07T14:59:00.000-05:00

I went to a friend's house for Breakfast today and really enjoyed our time of fellowship together. She made waffles and we talked over sweet milky cups of tea. :-) I really have enjoyed getting to know her!

As I was getting ready to leave, she asked me if we could use some chicken breasts. Of course I said yes, and as she put them in a bag, she also included over two pounds of ground beef, a dozen eggs, and a pound of butter. I was overwhelmed and felt like crying! She said to me "we've been there before and we want to give you this".

She didn't completely realize that we have almost no groceries in our fridge right now, and we can never afford chicken breasts either. But God knew!

May I always be as ready to give of what the Lord has bestowed on me. Thank you God! I am so grateful to You and to her. :-) <3

His Mercies are New Every Day...

2008-11-07T08:00:00.000-05:00

Michael and I are both working two jobs each. It is hard sometimes, but I thoroughly enjoy my nanny job (which ends December 18th), and everyone one who knows me knows I love teaching music. I have amazing students who really are talented and doing SO well. AND it helps that they have parents who make sure they are practicing. :-D Please pray for more students for me as I hope to just teach voice and piano after December and not worry about a second job. :-) Thanks!

This month we were down to the wire and wondering how we were going to pay our rent, electricity, interent (we have to have it for Michael's job that he works from our apartment), and our phone bill. We kept praying and working. The other night when Michael deposited four checks from my jobs into the bank, we had just enough to pay everything, plus a little leftover for some much needed groceries. :-D

God is SO faithful and has never let us go without. When we put our trust in Him, He will always provide just what we need. We may not have the money to go to the movies or out to eat, or even to travel around... but God has us at seminary and provides our needs, plus a little extra. :-D

Oh, and did I mention that Michael won second place in his work contest this month? That means a $50.00 gift card to a restaurant. :-D Can I hear an Amen??? :-P

This month is going to be busy busy busy. Tomorrow I go out to coffee with a wonderful new friend, make a meal for a couple who had a baby last week, and then we go to dinner with some elderly friends of Michael's from Michigan. On Saturday we are having Dr. Pentecost (the oldest professor here) over for dinner. :-D That should be fun!

Sarah comes next week! Yay for family visits. :-D She will be here from the 12-21st. And she will get to be here when we find out if it is a boy or girl on the 20th. :-D

This baby is a little gymnast I think. :-P Also bouncing around and wiggly. We can feel the baby from the outside now... which enthralls Michael. :-D

We will not be able to go home for Thanksgiving. :-( That has been really hard for me, but I am trusting that we will have a lovely little Thanksgiving here together. It just is definitely a time for extended family, and I will miss that! We are hopefully going to MI for Christmas... if we can swing some free tickets Michael might possibly be able to get with points. Please pray about that? Thanks!

Well, this was just a note chock full of random news. Thank you all for your friendship! I love you guys. :-) <3

Joy Cometh in the Morning...

2008-11-05T09:37:00.000-05:00

I awoke refreshed and ready to move on. I do not like Obama, but I will respect him as our 44th President, even though I cannot agree with his methods or beliefs. God IS sovereign, in control & obviously allowed this to happen. Let us be accountable to each other not to keep hashing out this election (whether we wanted Obama as president or not), but that we will pray for our nation and it's leaders. Please let me know if you are willing to join me in this!

"...weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning." Psalm 30:5b

Saddened....

2008-11-04T23:08:00.000-05:00

I am in tears right now, on my knees for my country. My heart is tight in my chest, as I wonder what will happen these next 4 years. People keep saying "This is God's will". I do believe in God's will... but when His people do nothing, He does allow bad things to happen. That is what I believe is happening.

Obama is against everything I believe in as a Christian. He is pro-abortion, pro-homosexuality, etc. People say... abortion is a smaller issue. When did human life become labeled as the "smaller issue"? How could anyone who claims to be a Christian vote for him? I have a hard time wrapping my mind around that. All I can say is, they wanted him... and now they have him.

I am also tired of hearing that this is God's will. Actually, I believe that God's will and Him allowing things to happen are two different things. This may not be a popular thing to say but I believe it. , but sometimes we ask God many times for something that He does not want for us. Eventually, we ask persistently so many times... He says "Ok, you can have it"... but it is not what He desired for us. This is what I believe has happened.

Lord, protect our Christian rights!
Help us to continue to worship freely... speak freely against the rampant sin in our day.
Lord, help us to continue to be able to preach and share about You.
Lord, help me to stay strong no matter what may come!
Amen

The Temporary Absence of a Brain... I hope...

2008-10-31T22:38:00.000-04:00

"Oh where is my brain?… oh where is my brain?… oh where oh where oh where oh where oh WHERE?….. is my brain!"Ack… I’ve listened to Veggie Tales one too many times. :-P

That, my dear friends, is what pregnancy has done to me.

I find that many things have changed. I cannot find anything (for instance... I couldn't find the Lawry's salt for two weeks and then found it in the fridge), I no longer care about asking for help in the grocery store, I talk to strangers like they are long lost friends, I cry over the smallest things, and I even tell anyone and everyone that I am pregnant (if they haven’t noticed yet).

The first stage of pregnancy, before I even KNEW I was pregnant, I was falling asleep all the time. I would yawn consistently when people were over and make them feel like they were the most boring company in the world… or I would just doze off with them there. Thankfully that stage ended with people happy for us and saying “THAT is why you fell asleep when I was in midsentence…”

I am so thankful that I have the dearest and sweetest husband in the world. I remember at the beginning of the pregnancy, I had these two weeks where I cried over everything like it was the end of the world. Poor bewildered Michael. After he realized it was completely hormonal and not him at all, he just went with the flow and held me as I soaked his shirt and left mascara marks.That stage was a short… err, long…. two weeks.

Then came the nauseous stage… constantly nauseous and no throwing up. It was horrid. I didn’t want to see, talk to, or be around anyone. Michael’s shaving lotion, cologne, mouthwash, deodorant… it all made me nauseous. Poor guy… I mean, talk about getting a complex. Think how your husband would feel if you said to him “Please don’t hug me right now because you make me want to throw up” :-P I said it just like that the first time and realized how it sounded… haha! I rephrased it the next time “Your cologne! Ahhh!” haha But it is ok… all my stuff made me nauseous too and I didn’t wear any perfume for about 3 weeks. Michael washed many dishes during this time.

After that, came the throwing up AND nauseous stage… for about a month. Oh goodness, it was just terrible. The worst I have ever felt in my life. Michael was wonderful and would come and hold my hair back. He was so patient, with even more dishes for him to wash.

When that stage was over, the fatigue hit full force. It is a different fatigue than the beginning of my pregnancy… more like, a constant wish to be sleeping. :-P I was so thankful to only be tired, that I was happy and rejoicing! I take naps and try to get to bed early so it is a breeze.

So that is where I am right now… 20 weeks and feeling great! I try my best to eat right (I am avoiding any caffeine… except a little chocolate now and then… MSG, high fructose corn syrup and corn syrup, and also trying to stay away from sugar in general… which is hard), and taking my vitamins. It is hard sometimes to remember everything I need to do.

This baby is a little jumping bean! It is the coolest feeling in the world to feel his/her little body swirling around in there. What a miracle! I can’t wait until November 20th when we will find out if we are having a boy or a girl. We have names picked out for either, but you will have to wait until their entrance into our grand world to find out. I love surprises! We call him/her “Peanut” right now.

I am so thankful that God has given us this dear precious little baby. Some random people have said negative comments, such as “that stinks” or “oh man!” but we know that God has a purpose for everything He does. Babies should be a blessing and never a burden. We also know that if He has given us this baby, then He will provide for it… and us! He is like that when we put our full trust and faith in Him and His amazing power. I am so glad I have Jesus in my life!

When I Fall in Love...

2008-10-29T23:22:00.000-04:00

"When I fall in love it will be forever
Or I'll never fall in love
In a restless world like this is
Love is ended before its begun
And too many moonlight kisses
Seem to cool in the warmth of the sun

When I give my heart it will be completely
Or Ill never give my heart
And the moment I can feel that you feel that way too
Is when I fall in love with you."

And that is exactly what happened. I love you Michael!

See the Resemblance?

2008-10-25T09:53:00.001-04:00

I can't believe how much my sister-in-law looks like Sarah Palin...
Sarah Breznau...

Sarah Palin high school photo...
If it weren't for S.P.'s hair, they could at least be sisters... if not twins. :-P

Vote!

2008-10-23T22:50:00.000-04:00

Thanks a bunch..

2008-10-20T22:06:00.000-04:00

So 3 year old little Miss Graydon says to me Friday... "Did you know that your belly and your bottom are the same size?"

Um. No. I didn't know.

Thanks Graydon. I really needed to hear that. :-P

The girls I nanny...

2008-10-19T19:58:00.000-04:00

They are so precious and I am going to miss them when I stop working for them in December...
Graydon Elizabeth... 3 years old

Riley Katherine... 8 months old

Because I love me...

2008-10-15T21:58:00.000-04:00

They have a thread on the Crossings called "Because I love me..."

It means accepting and loving yourself. To give yourself time out of a busy day so that you feel good about yourself. Especially with being pregnant, sometimes I drop into bed feeling worn out, icky, unattractive, and pudgy. :-P Michael is so sweet and is always so encouraging and affirming. I think it is just something that comes with pregnancy. :-)

So here was my "because I love me" day...
because I love me...
I took a nap
I drank a cup of Candy Cane Lane tea w/honey and milk
I read "A Witch on Blackbird Pond"
Crawled in bed early and watched "The NeverEnding Story"
Ate an Italian Ice.

I DID do productive things today such as clean the apartment and teach piano, but I am glad I made myself do these happy things!

God provides in creative ways...

2008-10-15T00:33:00.000-04:00

Today I went into whole foods to get our weekly gallon of organic milk and spring mix for salads. It works great because I HAVE to have organic milk anyway because of getting pregnant and it is cheaper at WF than at Wal-Mart. Try to figure that one out. And we eat on one big container of Spring mix for an entire week and ends up being cheaper in the long run.

Anyway, I was standing there perusing the different kinds of milk when I decided to ask the guy stocking the shelves if their store brand milk had antibiotics and/or hormones in it. We ended up chatting for about 15 minutes about the horrors of antibiotics, hormones, high fructose corn syrup, and even MSG. :-P He was a really nice guy...telling me about his wife when she was pregnant and what she did! Anyway, so I decided to go with their store brand organic milk (their other stuff isn't organic) after he explained that if it doesn't specifically say on there that the hormones/antibiotics are not in there, it is possible it is in there. You can never tell for sure. As I picked up the milk, he said "Hey, let this one be on me!" So he initialed the bar code and I got a free gallon of organic milk, priced at $5.19. :-D

God is so good!

Baby names...

2008-10-13T20:18:00.000-04:00

We have been talking a lot about what we are going to name our little munchkin. This is a big thing! It is something they have to carry with them the rest of their lives. We certainly don't want to dub them something that they will hate... or that others will make fun of. I was reading about one celebrity who named his three girls Pixie, Peaches, and last but certainly not least...Fifi Trixibelle. Goodness, can you even imagine trying to apply for a job with those names?

So far our picks are...
Clotilda and Barnabas

hehe, JUST kidding... actually, we both like the name Barnabas... it just doesn't sound good with our last name.

He would probably get Barney... and can you imagine a kid named Barney Breznau? Not only does it sound bad, but it brings nightmarish memories of a certain annoying purple dionsaur. :-P

God provides the little things as well as the big...

2008-10-11T09:58:00.000-04:00

God is so faithful. With both of us working, God is providing enough each month for bills and food. We don't have much left over for dates... of course every free moment is a date for us because we enjoy being together so much, but still sometimes it is nice to go out and just enjoy a meal at a restaurant, you know? But we just never go out to eat in order to save money and I love to cook for Michael anyway!

They had a challenge at Michael's work last month telling them that whoever sold the most would receive a prize. Michael is a really good salesmen, I think partly because he loves what he does and he enjoys helping people.

Well, Michael won the challenge!

The prize?

A $55 gift certificate to a restaurant (it gives you five choices, all pretty snazzy: Mi Cocina, Taco Diner, Mainstream, Mercury Grill, & Mercury Chophouse)... AND a $20.00 gift card to the movie theater (we are going to try to see Fireproof). Isn't God just amazing like that? He knew we needed something like this, but also is unique in how He provides. :-D

So we are finally going tonight and are going to thoroughly enjoy God's gift to us... and praise Him all the while.

Vote!!!

2008-10-10T07:07:00.000-04:00

Go here to my sister's blog and vote on this poll....
YES, they are ALL mine!!! :-D

Thanks!

Adventures wih Graydon...

2008-10-04T08:27:00.000-04:00

The precocious little 3 year old I nanny is hilarious. Here are just a few memorable quotes by Graydon Elizabeth...

Graydon: "Oh no, I tinkled in my panties! *pause* But it is ok... there is plenty of tinkle left" as she runs to the bathroom. :-P

Graydon: "Your tummy is really big... what do you have in there anyway?"

Graydon: "If you have a girl baby, then you have to put dresses on her and bows in her hair AND you have to buy her a pink bouncy seat. And if it is a boy... you canNOT put dresses on him''

Graydon to her mom "Mommy, do you remember when I was two?"
Phoebe "Oh yes Graydon, you were a cutie"
Graydon "Well, I just can't wait till I am 11... then I'll be giant Graydon" :-P

Graydon to me "I love your hairdo today... did you just get it cut?" Said with complete animation.

Phoebe to Graydon "Do you want to go shopping with me?"
Graydon "No mommy, I want to go home and play with Stephanie"

She is definitely a character. She has named each of her toes (Mommy, Daddy, Graydon, Riley, and Millie (the dog), loves anything pink, is going to be Snow White for Halloween (and also wants to be her when she grows up), and has me read Sleeping Beauty to her every day. :-D

Life is NOT boring!

Seeing God's Hand...

2008-09-21T16:55:00.000-04:00

Here is something that Michael wrote about God's recent working in our life. God is so good! I know it is long, but may it bless your life and grow your faith as it has ours.

"Have you ever experienced a time in your life when everything was going simply wonderful... and then reality struck a hard blow right at the very climax of your happiness? Or perhaps, have you ever gone through a week of not knowing how you were going to make it through the next? Sometimes the grit of life grinds hard against the oftentimes tender flesh of our humanity. And, it is during periods like these that we often discover the reality of how deep our faith may truly be.

When life stretches our emotions to the breaking point we learn. Yes, we learn through hard times. In fact, I believe it would be honest to say that I have been taught far more invaluable lessons during times of angst, stress, and loss than amidst the soaring times of joy and happiness. But, why must this be so? Why do we have to go through hardship to grow and learn? Why does it take a swelling tear to come a step closer to the Master?

Many days I have pondered this question and for many days I have not had an answer. Yet, eventually by the mercy of God I found that in my questioning, the answer had already been given. The answer happened to lay in the valley itself, and in the swelling tear of discouragement. I found that this answer was simple, yet "hard". The answer is "hard" in that it is difficult to accept from our so-often worldly mentality. And, as frustrating as it might seem, this lesson has to be learned over and over and over again - at least this is true for me. :-)

Falling on Hard Times

Just about one month ago I yet again went through an experience that taught me of the answer to this question. It was not easy or smooth sailing, it was not soaring high with joy and happiness, it was not even fun at all... it was just the opposite. However, after having gone through similar lessons before, there remained a certain level of hope and faith that God was in it all, and in this time I would again learn of the answer to the question.

Upon our arrival back here in Dallas after our unbelievable, "mountain top" honeymoon of bliss, Stephanie and I were presented with a tough dilemma. After settling into our new apartment and finally climbing out of the hills of boxes, we began to discover that we were fast approaching zero in our bank accounts. This did not bode well at all because both of us knew that our expenses were only going to rise (especially once my school tuition bills starting coming in the end of July).

However, with a general budget in hand we began seeking out jobs that would hopefully help us meet our needs. Stephanie applied to more than half a dozen positions around the area, yet after several weeks it appeared that nothing was going to "pan out." More than a month went by and with events at the church running low on my work schedule, I too went looking for something extra to add on to my duties. With many thanks to the Lord, He opened up a door just a couple weeks later for me to do some marketing work for Tommy Nelson's Song of Solomon Bible Resources. This certainly was an answer to our prayers and would definitely help our financial situation. And during this time it was also confirmed to our most pleasant surprise that a little "Peanut" had been planted during our honeymoon in northern Georgia. WOW! What a wonderful joy... yes a mountain top. But over the past two and a half months of scraping by with little work and having significantly increased expenses for rent etc... our situation still looked quite dim.

The past month of August was discouraging at times and even involved some panic, yet we continued to believe that God would provide and keep us out from under the heavy load of debt. I began working on my new job which seemed to be going pretty well, until just as I began the second week of work I came down with strep throat and could not eat solid foods, let alone work for more than five days. And, our bills for tuition, rent, insurance, and others kept flowing in. This was a period of inner strife for me because every other time I had run low I had always been able to work myself out of the hole and get back to "running again." Yet, this time I could do nothing but lay in bed sipping on tea and trying to swallow yogurt. Stephanie did her best to take care of me, even though she herself was severely struggling with morning sickness due to pregnancy. What a wonderful wife God has given me.

As that week came to an end, I slowly started to recover and once again began to look over our finances. Glancing ahead at all the bills due right around the first of this month, I first began to panic... but then as Stephanie reminded me, we again cried out to the Lord for our needs to be met. We both believe that God knows all our needs before we even ask Him, yet felt entirely prompted to ask of Him a specific amount that would cover our expenses and asked of Him that He would be pleased to answer our prayer by the end of that week.

Down to the Wire

By Wednesday I had only $15 in my checking account, yet remained at peace that God would show His power. And show us He did! On Thursday Stephanie had an interview for a part-time nanny job and was offered the position, and that same day she also acquired a new piano student! While these things would not offer us an immediate solution to our pending bills, they certainly brought much needed encouragement from our Lord. That evening we thanked God for the wonderful events of the day and again brought our needs before Him.

On Friday morning (the end of the week) I woke up and decided to check our bank account online to see if my regular paycheck had gone through. As I rubbed the sleep away from my eyes, I could not believe the number that stared back at me from the screen of my laptop. With my heart pounding and tears welling up I clicked on the account status to see if, in fact, what I was seeing was true and not just a figment of my imagination. And, low and behold there was an amount sent along with my paycheck from some dear friends that would meet all the major pending bills that I would need to pay in the next several days...

Wiping the emotion from my eyes I ran into the bedroom and quickly brought Stephanie over to the computer so she could see for herself that our God had heard our prayers. As we both wept and praised the Lord for His goodness that morning, we realized that God had taught us a very important lesson about faith and trust. Yes it was VERY hard to go through such a test, yet we had grown closer to our Savior and to one another as well.

As we hand over our self-trust for belief in God we come to realize that life is not about us, but about Christ and His glory. The events and experiences of this life on earth do not measure one chord to that which is to come in His great Kingdom. Yet, through these days of life that are woven together with hard times and with the good, we see that He is at work and we see His hand. His hand is shown in our lives not that we may have what we want, when we want it, but that He might show the excellencies of His grace toward us who are in Christ.

To know that He is near and to believe that He is sovereign - literally watching over every circumstance of our lives; this is the answer to the question! Life is not learned until there is pain. Until we know the anguish of death and loss we will never know the value of life. Until we have nothing we will never learn the value of one single dollar. And, until we surrender our self-trust into simple belief in the omnipotent Lord will we learn to see His hand.

And then, when all this life is over and we lay our heads to rest we shall enter the streets of gold and cast the crowns that we have earned by our faith through Christ at the foot of the throne of our Powerful God and crown Him King of Kings and Lord of Lords. For it is all for Him and by Him and for His great glory.

May we wholeheartedly say as Paul wrote to the Church at Philippi during his imprisonment (an obvious hardship), "For me to live is Christ and to die is gain." (Phil. 1:21)

Watch for His hand... He is waiting to show His glory.

May His glory be known and His power shown in and through our lives for the praise of His glorious grace."

Cute stuff...

2008-09-18T13:25:00.000-04:00

So I definitely want to buy one of these for our little peanut when the time comes... it also comes
in pink and blue. We shall see what little Peanut is first. ;-)
And here are some maternity tee's I love...

And my all-time favorite...

New hair cut...

2008-09-16T00:12:00.001-04:00

I love it! Awesome salon and stylist... for only $20.00 plus tip too! The salon is normally $45 and above for cuts, but it is a mon-thurs deal they have for stylist in training. I felt like a princess... got a scalp and neck massage, she brought me a glass of water with a slice of orange in it, she shampooed my hair and then cut and styled it. It got a little flat by the time I took these pictures, but there are a ton of layers and stacking and it is vavavoom when it is in it's full glory. ;-) Michael loves it! There are a couple more pictures on facebook. :-D

In His Strength...

2008-09-04T22:20:00.000-04:00

"Trying to do the Lord's work in your own strength is the most confusing,
exhausting, and tedious of all work. But when you are filled with the Holy Spirit,
then the ministry of Jesus just flows out of you."

~ Corrie ten Boom

One of those days and trusting God through it...

2008-08-19T17:02:00.000-04:00

Have you ever had those days where nothing seems to go right?

Where you forget that you are filling the sink and it overflows? Or you dump half your bottle of homemade salad dressing on the floor? When you feel so nauseous and tired you can't pull yourself out of bed but you have to because the bug inspector AND the internet guy are coming? When your husband is sick and feels absolutely miserable? When you can't get the combination to your mailbox to work? This has been one of those days.

But this has also been a day where God has poured His love and mercy on me as well. Life becomes better when I remember that He is always with me and will always take care of me. I know He loves me, I never ever doubt that... but why in the world do I let cares and worries override what He has already done in my life? He has already done so much in tremendous & powerful ways. I need to keep my eye on Him...no matter what! I can't imagine what my life wouldl be like if I did not have Him in it. I need to remember that. :-) He is so good!

So.... even when I don't feel good, or I have a clumsy moment, or the dumb combination doesn't work, or I see my husband so sick... I find something in which to rejoice. :-D Sometimes it takes a little thinking, but there is no circumstance in which we cannot find something to rejoice in the Lord!

I was reminded of the beautiful old hymn "He Giveth More Grace". May you be as encouraged and blessed as I was and daily reminded of His loving grace and power.

~He Giveth More Grace~
By: Annie Flint

He giveth more grace as our burdens grow greater,
He sendeth more strength as our labors increase;
To added afflictions He addeth His mercy,
To multiplied trials he multiplies peace.

When we have exhausted our store of endurance,
When our strength has failed ere the day is half done,
When we reach the end of our hoarded resources
Our Father’s full giving is only begun.

His love has no limits, His grace has no measure,
His power no boundary known unto men;
For out of His infinite riches in Jesus
He giveth, and giveth, and giveth again

2008-08-18T13:06:00.000-04:00

I went to a ladies crossings gathering on Saturday with a WONDERFUL group! Oh, it was so refreshing and fun. :-D Each girl was just as wonderful as I thought. :-D I ate a yummy greek salad bowl at Mimi's cafe, made some great purchases (it was no-tax weekend), and we ended up at CiCi's Pizza for dinner. Heh, Jessica has a picture of me looking 9 months pregnant with the lovely little pillow you can strap on at the Motherhood. Hilarious. Lots of laughs that day, as well as smiles and heart to hearts.

New friends...

2008-08-08T17:17:00.000-04:00

I am loving Dallas... the people, the food (oh the food is heavenly!), but NOT the heat. :-P It hit 110 one day and I thought I was going to die!

I made a new friend today. i was walking to the library, and my eye was caught by the most precious little baby girl... as she grinned and a dimple showed, I had to stop and talk to her and her mother. The baby girl's name is Jean. She cooed and laughed as I talked to her and told her she was a pretty precious little girl. Then I struck up a conversation with her mother. Her name is Elaine... she grew up in Hong Kong, although she is Korean by birth. She lives down the hallway from us. We really hit if off!

So now that is the fourth friend I have made... Liz, Ratna, Chelsea, and Elaine. :-D I love people. :-)

:-D

2008-08-02T17:28:00.000-04:00

It has been a while since I've updated here. God has been so good to us.

His daily provision for our needs and His love for me overwhelms and astounds me.

We have been really busy! I have looking for a job and sending my resume different places. I know God will direct me to the right job.

Our most important news is that come March we will become parents...

We were surprised, but very very excited over the prospect of this immense responsibility and blessing in our lives. A lot of people counseled us that we should wait a couple years. We prayed before we got married, and after that God would be glorified in whatever happened. We feel that God chose to give us little "Peanut" to strengthen not only our faith, but the faith of the people around us as they see God's immense power in how He will provide for us. I always think of Jeremiah 29:11.... "...I know the plans I have for you..."

So other than the wonderful news of our little precious baby, Michael has been busy with work and a one credit (one week) class that he finished up yesterday (still has to do a test and turn in a paper next week), and I have been busy with setting up our little "nest". It really is a cute little apartment that perfectly fits all our needs. I know several people have requested pictures, so I will try to do that soon. The only thing left to buy for our apartment is curtain rods, curtains, and a lamp for one of the rooms. It is comfy, cozy, and so wonderfully shabby chic. :-P

A few weeks ago, we had the wonderful privelege of having a very godly Indian Pastor, Devadas Mekala (Daddy to all who know him) stay with us for about a week. What a special time of fellowship, prayer, laughter, and hearing about God's workings in the Bless India ministry. I have truly enjoyed getting to know Daddy, and can't wait to wear the beautiful red, black, white, and silver Sari he gave me sometime! He then went to Houston for a week and flew back and we drove him to Mississippi (near Memphis, TN and West Memphis, AK). We got to hang out with some amazing friends, David & Jill Denton (love them!), and eat dinner at the Lipscomb's mansion. I was very blessed to hear their testimony of their two daughters dying in a train accident and how so many people have come to the Lord through hearing their story.

Some prayer requests:
*That we can find a conservative, bible believing church where we feel welcome and where we can minister to others.
*For my health as I carry this child. I've been experiencing some morning sickness and extreme fatigue. Please pray I feel better soon!
*God's provision for our daily needs.
*That we can be a testimony to all around us and boldly share Jesus with everyone we meet.

So happy...

2008-07-18T17:00:00.000-04:00

to announce that I have a beautiful new little munchkin niece. :-D

Stats...
Born 11:15 am July 18
9 lbs
21 inches
Lily (not sure if it is spelled Lily or Lilly at this point) :-P Catherine

I have yet to see pictures, but I am sure she is gorgeous and cuddly. Congrats to my sister and her family on another bundle of joy and happiness! May she grow to love the Lord Jesus with all her heart, soul, mind and strength. :-)

Life is beautiful...

2008-07-01T16:49:00.000-04:00

I'm back! :-D

The wedding was GORGEOUS. I appreciate every single person who did SO much to help. I love all of my bridesmaids and they were are so beautiful in their dresses and their pretty smiling faces and encouragement.

Our honeymoon was relaxing and fun. We stayed two nights at the Sheraton Imperial Hotel. It was REALLY nice. The night of our wedding, we got to the hotel and the bellhop was an older christian man and when he took us to our room he said he had never in all his years of doing his job met a couple like us and then he took our hands and prayed a beautiful prayer of blessing on us!

We then went to Black Mountain (near Asheville) and stayed at the Lifeway Ridgecrest Retreat Center for 3 nights. They gave Michael the Minister's discount and we got a two room suite with two bathrooms, a kitchenette, a living room, and a little porch with two white rocking chairs! It was beautiful area and place to stay! We left there on my birthday (the 19th) and then went to Northern Georgia and stayed in a Cabin on 27 acres. It was gorgeous and quiet! The home is owned by one of Michael's former elderly customers. It is her winter home and so she let us use it for free for as long as we wanted and also let us use her little Nissan in the driveway so we could save money on gas (with Michael's big ole' truck). We stayed there a week and enjoyed watching deer in our back yard, candlelit dinners, reading the bible and praying together, bike riding (we went on a 7 1/2 mile bike ride one day. Whoa!), and taking a day trip to the Highlands, NC, which included hiking to waterfalls and sightseeing.

We are settled into our new apartment down here in good ole' Dallas. It is a gorgeous and homey little place with high ceilings and plenty of room for the two of us. I have already started setting up housekeeping. :-D The area is so nice and I am already eyeballing several little bookshops and cute little cafes for possible jobs.

God is blessing us in so many ways. I am very happy for several reasons... being married to the most godly and loving man I know, knowing I am in God's will for my life, and just having fun being a wife and taking care of my wonderful husband!

Today is the day!

2008-06-14T09:22:00.001-04:00

I am getting married tonight. :-D I am so excited! I will be back to update in a couple weeks. :-D

Sisters?

2008-06-06T17:15:00.000-04:00

The FUNNIEST thing happened the other day. I am always getting told I look like some actress or relative of someone, but never has it actually panned out in this way. I went into CVS in the little town near us and I was paying for my stuff. The cashier kept looking at me puzzled. She finally asked "do you have a sister?" I said yes I did. She told me I looked just like a younger lady who came in there a lot. I asked her if she had kids... and she said "oh, a lot of them... and she is pregnant too! She is really tall and has long dark blonde hair." I told her that it WAS my sister, and she exclaimed how much we favored each other! Haha, she really did hit the jackpot. I guess Jillian and I look more alike than I thought. :-P I just thought this was too funny NOT to post! :-D

Do we look that much alike? :-P

Chizzy...

2008-05-23T20:33:00.001-04:00

Chizzy (Chizziterum) is 5 years old and quite precocious.

She is adorable, hilarious, and very smart.

She loves to laugh, sing, and talk.

I have enjoyed teaching her so much!

It saddens me to say goodbye to each of my students.

I know I will soon be acquiring new ones,

but each and every child that I teach holds a place in my heart.

I will write about more students soon.

There Shall Be Showers of Blessings...

2008-05-21T18:50:00.000-04:00

God is truly amazing! The shower in Florida was overwhelming. I felt like crying the entire night. There were around 80 ladies who came! I just couldn't believe it. :-D I felt so so so loved. I got there a few minutes late (nothing new there... haha) but it worked out because everyone was already there and when I walked in, everyone started clapping and cheering. It took me almost the entire night to hug everyone I hadn't seen in so long.

We mingled for a while, ate some wonderful food, and then Aunt Mary (Jalbert) gave a beautiful devotion about loving, submitting to, and praying for our husbands. She then had three wonderful ladies (Mrs. Parks, Mrs. Knecht, & Aunt Jimmye (Hudson) pray over me... each one praying for me to love, submit, and pray for Michael. It was beautiful and I did cry! Who wouldn't cry? We then played a couple of fun games and then it was time to open gifts.

I started opening gifts and during this time I was gearing up for a little surprise of my own! Unknown to most of the ladies, my parents, Grandma and I had bought a ticket for Michael to fly to Florida so that he could meet all my family and friends plus spend his birthday with me. So at about 9:00, Jessica announced that there was a "mystery guest" who would be arriving shortly. People had no idea! When he walked in (with my brother Philip), a collective cheer went up around the room along with clapping and whistling. He is such a good sport. :-P It was awesome. :-D

I got some truly wonderful items, including a pink kitchen aid!!!! I almost fell over. :-D I really didn't expect to get it!

One thing I appreciated so much was that it wasn't about the gifts! I hate going to showers where that is the priority. I mean, I love the stuff that people have so lovingly given us, but I love the people who gave them so much more! Another thing I must mention, is that those Cardwell ladies know how to throw a party full of elegance, fun, and beauty.

Thank you everyone who came and showed your support and encouragement in my life. You mean so much to me and I love you all! No matter what I do or where I will go, Florida and the people who live there will always hold a very special place in my heart.

The Dream of a Lifetime...

2008-05-10T10:21:00.000-04:00

Last night I dreamed that I was riding in a public bus. Michael was not with me, but waiting for me. As I sat there reading, we made a quick stop to pick up some more people. This man got on the bus and sat in the front. All of a sudden, he jumped up and started screaming and he shot and killed the bus driver. I was in the back and started praying. After he had shot the driver, he started walking towards the back, yelling as he came. He was screaming about how God did not love him so he was going to kill everyone.

I remember sitting calmly as he shot a couple more people and started coming towards me. He still had quite a ways to go, but out eyes met and he came straight towards me. He made me stand up, put the gun in my face, and asked me if I loved Jesus. He also told me that he would kill me if I did. I looked straight at him and told him that yes, I loved Jesus and that I knew Jesus loved Him as well. I also told him that I was not afraid to die because I knew for sure that I would go straight to heaven to live with Him. I remember trembling, not so much with fear, but just the knowledge that I was going to die. As he looked at me, and as talked, he started weeping and confessing. I remember feeling sad for him, but knew that he was in such pain. He put the gun down and left the bus where the police were. I remember seeing Michael and just crying as he held me because I knew that my life had almost been ended and why. I woke up then. Just amazing.

It is amazing to me now that I am awake and can think about it more. It convicted me to always stay strong and NEVER deny my Jesus. How easy would it be to just say, "no, I do not love Jesus". It would be very "easy" to deny Him, like Peter did when confronted if he knew Jesus. He was just concerned about saving himself. Yet, even being denied by Peter, Jesus forgave him and took him back.

Who said the life of the Christian is easy? I don't want "easy". I want to strive and never give up. I want to love my Jesus and serve Him until the day I do finally join Him in Heaven.
I hope this dream encourages you as it did me.

Target...

2008-05-04T08:08:00.001-04:00

I just wanted to let everyone know I am now also registered at Target for my bath and bedding stuff. I looked and looked at the places I was already registered at and I couldn't find stuff that I absolutely loved. Well, when I went to Target and saw this stuff... well, it is just gorgeous!

http://www.target.com/ :-D

He is the God of Provision...

2008-04-28T16:52:00.001-04:00

Michael's laptop pretty much went kaput a couple of weeks ago. We prayed together as to what to do next, fix his laptop or spend a little more than he would be spending to get it fixed and buy a new one. It was a nice laptop, not fancy or anything. So we prayed and prayed some more. Michael even went ahead and bought a new Dell laptop. Little did we know what was soon to happen...

One day, a man was talking to Michael's friend Alberto and wanted to know if Alberto knew of anyone needing a computer. Of course Alberto told him about Michael! God provided Michael and I with a beautiful brand new laptop through a man he had never met! This man had a ministry of blessing others. Off our little Dell computer (of which we would have been content with) went back to the company. :-)

So yes, we can trust God through any circumstance, whether it be a laptop, a vehicle, a house, which college to go to, etc. He knows our needs and our hearts. He is even providing immensely for our 10 day honeymoon (of which I know nothing about because my adorable soon~to~be husband is surprising me). I love surprises!

I am so excited about how God has already worked in our lives and look forward to continuing to serve Him together. God does amazing things beyond our comprehension!

Seeking Shelter in God...

2008-04-23T16:46:00.000-04:00

As I was reading in my time with the Lord this morning, I found these following words a comfort to my soul. I want to always be aware of my attitude in hard times that it might reflect the One who saved me. I don't want to grumble or complain over hard times, but try to grow and learn through my circumstances, whatever they may be. I hope it encourages you as it has me.

"Some Christians treat God as a kind of insurance agent. In hard times, the expect Him to issue a claim check to restore what they've lost. While waiting for Him to change their circumstances for the better, they withhold fellowship from Him. Life's "squeeze" reveals their lack of submission and stubborn attitudes.

It is the heaven-born instinct of a child of God to seek shelter beneath the wings of the Almighty. The tendency to complain or to assert that God owes us something is not spiritual. The godly instict of a child of God is to says with Job, "Oh, that I might find Him."

~Joni Eareckson Tada~

"Seeking God"

pictures...

2008-04-22T10:02:00.000-04:00

Here are some pictures from Crystal's trip... as well as some from my Bridal Shower...

Me with two of my amazing bridesmaids!

My sister Jillian and I

My dear~beautiful~best friend~bridesmaid Crystal

My beautiful Mama and Grandma

Aren't we a little young for red hats? ;-)

Friends for life!

Smile big!

I miss her!

Crystal is coming!

2008-04-15T20:22:00.000-04:00

Crys flies in tomorrow. I can't wait. We are going to watch movies, shop, have a picnic, visit the tea room, go to my bridal shower, paint my mom's room and bathroom, and just have a wonderful time together! She is so wonderful! I can't wait to see her again. :-D

Words of Comfort...

2008-04-09T10:14:00.000-04:00

There is no one like Jesus to comfort and bring peace.

Psalm 62

"Truly my soul waiteth upon God:
from him cometh my salvation.

He only is my rock and my salvation;
he is my defense; I shall not be greatly moved.

How long will ye imagine mischief against a man?
Ye shall be slain all of you:
as a bowing wall shall ye be, and as a tottering fence.

They only consult to cast him down

from his excellency:
they delight in lies:
they bless with their mouth,
but they curse inwardly. Selah.

My soul, wait thou only upon God;
for my expectation is from him.

He only is my rock and my salvation:
he is my defense; I shall not be moved.

In God is my salvation and my glory:
the rock of my strength, and my refuge, is in God.

Trust in him at all times;
ye people, pour out your heart before him:
God is a refuge for us. Selah.

Surely men of low degree are vanity,
and men of high degree are a lie:
to be laid in the balance,
they are altogether lighter than vanity.

Trust not in oppression,
and become not vain in robbery:
if riches increase,
set not your heart upon them.

God hath spoken once;
twice have I heard this;
that power belongeth unto God.

Also unto thee, O Lord, belongeth mercy:
for thou renderest to every man according to his work"

My invitations came!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-04-07T14:21:00.000-04:00

They are beautiful! I can't wait to get them sent out. :-D Yay!

save the date mishaps...

2008-04-07T11:51:00.001-04:00

I can't believe some people never received their save-the-date cards. Mail can be so frustrating. I know of a few, locally and at a distance, who never received it. Errr!